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Chapter 73

Alice

The next few days went so fast that I didn't even realise that week is almost going to end. My mind always drifts to Dorian. How will I tell him? How will he take all these? I just don't know what am I doing. Everything is so confusing. My feeling, this situation, everything is like rambling inside my head.
We've almost completed Jake's journal. Only a few pages are left. We get to know how he found that girl which basically was a princess. Still, they fell in love with each other. Their little secret couldn't be secret anymore when one of her guards told the truth to the queen. And as expected queen was against their relationship. First, because he didn't belong to any royal family and second, he was Malign. Their enemy. So the princess decided to leave the palace and ran away with Jake.
It's like, I'm reading some Romeo-Juliet stories.
And I'm still wondering, why didn't he mention her name. Well, apart from that they are finally going to marry. I mean they already did. But we haven't just read that yet.
05 December 1999
Dear Love,
I still don't believe that tomorrow she'll be my wife. Tomorrow will be our wedding day. Well, unfortunately, there will be nothing fancy about our wedding venue. Just a simple decent place where only our family, I mean my family will be present. Since her mother is against this. So we kept it secret. And she will not be a part of this. But I'm worried that what if she'll find out. Then the wedding venue will definitely turn into a graveyard.

06 December 1999
Dear Love,
She looked angel when she walked toward me in that beautiful wedding dress. I was like I fell for her again. She looked incredibly beautiful. Beautiful bride ever. Her brown eyes gleamed more than ever. My breathing was literally stopped when she stood right in front of my eyes, beaming at me. I know she deserves much better than me. And this thought kills me every single time. But she's with me. She made me forget who I am. She brings the real out of me. She's amazing. She's fearless. She's strong. She's intelligent. She's loyal. I must say she has all the qualities to be the future queen. She will a great leader one day.
My mother is so happy for us. She cried during the whole wedding ceremony.

When I look around, he is already sleeping. Really? I smile the way he sleeps, holding me in his arms. And I was the one who is reading for us. And now he sleeps.
Yawning, I closed Jake's journal as silently as possible, trying not to make any noise. I don't want to wake him up.
One moment I feel extremely happy being with Luke. And another moment of guilt engulfed me when Dorian's thought hit my mind. He deserves the truth as soon as possible. But I don't know where he is. Or when will he get back? He doesn't even bother to find out whether I'm alive or not. He just disappeared. And this makes me angry every single time. He's strange. I don't know what's going on in his mind. What he wants. I don't know anything. And I bet nobody knows about him. But apart from that, I miss him. I really miss him. What if something bad happened to him? I shake my head. No, he must be fine. He has to be fine. He's the strongest.
I let out a heavy sigh. And then I look at him. My lips stretched again into a smile.
I hold him back before falling asleep.

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I woke up from the noise. I glanced up around with my half-closed eyes. I think that noise is coming from the outside. I arch my back on the bed and stretch my body awake.
Damn, I sleep like shit.
I blink my eyes awake, the faint, morning light stream across the ceiling from where it spills in through the glass double doors in my room.
I roll off the bed. I walk to the hall, peering out through the window in front of me.
I saw Luke, holding a hammer, hitting something. I went closer to get a clear view. He was fixing someone's house.
Raising his arms, he pulls his blue sweatshirt over his head and throws it on the bench next to him, reaching over to pick up the hammer again.
For a moment, I freeze.
His skin-golden and toned-looks warm and smooth under his half sleeves T-shirt, the muscles of his arms stretch as he raises the hammer, displaying how long and hard he's worked in his life. Sweat glistens down his neck.
After leaving the palace. He made another life for himself and that must be hard to do everything on your own.
These little things make me fall again and again for him.
I notice as some girl similar to my age is heading where Luke is working. She is wearing an orange long sleeve dress, covering her hand completely. Her blonde hair is open. She hasn't done any makeup on her face. Still, she looks beautiful. Her milky white skin gleamed against the sun.
Who is she? I haven't seen her before.
He senses her approach and looks down at her, pausing his work, and I watch as he listens, probably wondering why she's bugging him. Maybe he's wondering, that is. She is hot, and not many men would refuse a girl like her if she set her sights on them.
I can see her blushing when Luke said something to her. They don't look like they met for the first time.
Does he know her?
After a moment, she touches his arm, and I barely breathe as I watch her bend her neck, inspecting his work. Then, quickly, she straightens and lifts her dress a little, showing him her bare leg. He watches as she twisted her left leg, showing the back of her knee and my stomach sinks, expecting him to blush or look uncomfortable, but he doesn't. Instead, he watches her as she talks animatedly, excited, and then suddenly, he smiles, his body shaking with a laugh at whatever she's saying. Something tugs at the back of my throat, and I don't feel good. He keeps looking at her. His eyes have barely left her since she walked out there. Does he want her?
No. It can't be. After that night. It can't be. I know he's still not okay with this. Since I'm his brother's girl. And he's still uncomfortable being like this. But whatever happened at the cave, we can't change that. I can't change my feeling.
Is he distracting his mind from me? Is he trying to find another one to get rid of me?
Damn, what the hell am I thinking? He's not like this.
I shake my head and then I walk out of the house. They stop talking as they notice me coming. I manage a half smile on my face. I don't want to show them how uncomfortable I'm right now.
"Good morning," I say to him and then glance down at her, "I haven't seen you before".
"Well, that is strange. Because I live next door. Still, you didn't notice me" she smiled.
I narrow my eyes, "Maybe you are busy making friends so I didn't get a chance to say hello". I watch her and then at him.
He's silent. He must get the idea of what is running inside my head.
He clears his throat and then steps between us, "Better late than never".
But I'm still glaring at her and so did she.
"Alice meet Hazel. She lives here" he showed me the house the one where he's working right now.
I felt jealousy growing inside me. He's fixing her house.
He continues, "Hazel, this is Alice, my friend".
Friend? Is he serious?
I jerk my head to him, my mouth falls open a little. I'm shocked into silence by his statement. His eyes stay locked on mine, unblinking with a mixture of guilt and confusion wrote all over his handsome face.
He looks away, grabbing the hammer again. He starts his work.
I blink. And without watching anything I storm inside the house.
He's still introducing me as his friend. After everything, he's still acting like I'm just his friend. Is he ashamed of me?
My skin is burning from the anger. I never feel like this before. Anger is continuously rising inside me. And I'm getting an urge to break something, burned everything into ashes. I pace around the hall, trying to calm myself. I pour a glass of water and drink it in one go. But nothing works. I still feel like burning.
It's like I'm on fire. Everything is looming around me. Something is happening. Something is happening to me. I scream.
And then I stopped breathing when my eyes dart to my hand. Fire is splitting through them. Not only through my hand but from all over my body. Like someone set me on fire. But I don't feel like burning. These flames are not burning me.
What is happening to me?
"Alice?" I turned as Luke's panicked voice filled the hall. He runs towards me "Oh my God" he whispers.
And some darkness engulfs my surrounding. I step ahead to move further but I couldn't. Everything seems blurry to me. I can't see him. Before I say something, I fall into the darkness.