Find me

Chapter 45

Alice

I try to take a step back from him, but his grip is too strong. "He's waiting," I say. But he didn't care.

"Time to go" Edwin state again. This time Dorian release his hold from me and turn to face him. I can see some tension between them. "What do want Edwin?" Dorian snaps.

Edwin walks to him. His feature doesn't look good. He's furious at Dorian or at me or maybe on both. "You clearly know, why I'm here. To take you home" he says.

"Home?" Dorian laugh. "You're seriously unbelievable Edwin" he shook his head.

"Whatever you are doing is bullshit. Come to your sense, dammit" Edwin says.

I walk to them. Now the situation becomes really awkward. And I think I need to excuse myself "Uh....... I'll be back when you guys finish" I say and start walking, but Dorian grab my hand "You're not going anywhere. Stay here" he commanded to me while staring at him.

Now Edwin's eyes dart on me "She's responsible for everything" he shoots me. I blink, don't know what to say. When suddenly he charged on me "I told you to stay away. But you didn't listen" Edwin says aggressively. I swallowed while taking a step back as Dorian stops him and pushed him by his chest "Don't you dare" Dorian yells.

Edwin doesn't say anything, just staring down at him, like Dorian had said the most unbelievable thing to him.

"Let me go" I tried to squeeze out my hand from his grip. But useless. My emotions are now getting worst of me. So, I glance down on the floor, trying to understand their tension. No one wants me with him. I guess Gloria is best for him, not me. I'm really ashamed of myself right now. Both of them fighting and are yelling at each other because of me. It's all my fault. Why would I allow him to kiss me? Why would I fall for him? Why him? I made everything worst. He cheated on her because of me.

"You're not going, don't you get that," Dorian said while glancing down at me.

"What is wrong with you?" Edwin frustrated voice fill in my room.

Dorian let go of my hand as he walks to him "Do you really want me to remind you that who am I?" they are so close to each other, this is when Edwins feature changes, he turns down his head. And doesn't say after that. He doesn't look angry anymore like some fear engulfed him.

"Leave!" Dorian ordered. Edwin gives him a quick nod before he walking outside.

What the hell was that?

"Can we talk?" Dorian asks, and I blinked, unable to comprehend everything whatever happened just a moment ago.

I nodded.

He closed the door and then walk to me. My heart is in my stomach as he closes his distance to me. I don't know if he's going furious at me or if he'll be willing to apologise me.

He stares at the wall for a few moments before he turns to face me, all the smugness is gone from his expression. And thankfully, his eyes are gentle now. He swallows "I'm sorry for all these," he says.

"I'm sorry too. I don't know that this would end up like this. I don't..... I don't want to come in between you guys. It's really weird and its making me feel sick and I think we just need to pretend that it didn't happen".

He stares at me as he runs his tongue across his lower lip. "I wish I could say the same about me".

"What?" Now that I've blurted what I've needed to blurt, I feel slightly more at ease. That is, of course, until he looks at me in the way I've never seen him look at me before. And my entire body ignites again, just like it did a few minutes before.

"I kissed you back" he states bluntly "I'm not going to apologize for that".

"Why?"

He pauses for a few moments, look like he's processing what to answer. "Because I knew what I was doing".

"Why did you do that? You don't even like me. And of course, you have a girlfriend".

"Who said that I don't like you?" he replied,

His one sentence, freaking one sentence just freeze me there. "What?" I ask.

"I always liked you. I always wanted to be with you, like I'm dying for it" he snaps. He spins his body around, turning his back to me as he heaves a sigh and presses a hand to the wall.

"You've wanted to?" I repeat. Now I'm just lost and confused and feeling sicker than ever. "What the hell are you saying?"

"Telling you the truth" he replied and held his head low as he speaks again "I'm sorry for hurting you till now". The moment the words escape his lips, he swivels his body back around, his eyes no longer gentle as storms grow within their depths "But from now on I won't let this happen again. Trust me".

I'm stunned into silence. Dorian, the guy who's treated me like a doormat since I arrived here, who doesn't care if I exist or not, is in fact, liked me? Who never glanced back at me in the way I ever wanted. It doesn't make sense at all "I thought you hated me" I manage to reply because this all running through my mind.

"I hate a lot of people," he says gruffly, "But you are not one of them. I always wanted you".

"STOP," I say, taking one step back from him "You have a girlfriend".

"She's not. We just pretend to be like that" he replied as he turned to look out the window before fixing his eyes back on me "I should've told you this before". He's quite clearly irritated that I've mentioned her. He runs a hand back through his hair. "You and I. We used to be friends when we were little".

I kept silent, processing everything. My dreams were real. Whatever flashback I used to see was real.

"I just didn't get a chance to tell you this before that........ that....... I LOVE YOU. I always do". His soft voice echo in my room.

And I gasp.