Heartbreak Girl~Cethany {DISCONTINUED}

Chapter 17

~Bethany's POV~:
If there was any doubt in my mind about loving Connor, it was gone now. I am seriously falling hard for him.

We were just sitting in his room now. We didn't talk or do anything. We just sat in silence, hugging each other.

"Bethany?" Connor spoke softly and quietly as if he thought I was asleep.

"Yeah?" I talked in the same tone. Quiet and soft, a comforting sound I guess.

"Bethany I'm really sorry about Derek." I squeezed my eyes shut at his words to prevent tears from spilling down my face.

"It's not your fault Connor...it's...it's fine." I choked out the words. A few tears managed to fall. Connor hugged me a little tighter, telling me it was okay. "Connor how long have you liked me?"

There was a long moment of silence before he answered me; "I'm not sure Beth. It feels like it's been an eternity." I didn't reply to that. How could I? He's liked me for probably every boyfriend and I haven't even noticed that he wanted to be my boyfriend.

"I'm sorry for never noticing." I whispered quietly so he would know I meant it. "Why didn't you ever tell me?"

"Because I was scared you would say no. I was scared you didn't like me back. And that it would ruin our friendship if you said no."

"Connor, nothing could ever ruin our friendship. It might've gotten awkward but I don't think I would've said no..." Would I? I never did have a crush on him...

"Bethany you can be honest with me. If you never saw me as more then a friend I get it..." His words broke my heart. I never noticed how much he cared. He's always been there. Every. Time. And where have I been? I've been kissing other guys and having other boyfriends. Then I ask him for advice while he wanted to be my boyfriend. I must have put him through an emotional hell.

"Connor I'm so sorry. I must have hurt you so many times without even knowing what I was doing. How could I be so mean to you?"

"Bethany it's not your fault you didn't know..."

"Yeah but I should have known that I was hurting my best friend." He hugged me tight. "I really am sorry." He kissed my head softly with such delicacy. He acted as if he was trying not to break me, as if I was fragile.

"Don't worry about it Bethany. I'm sorry that you have to hurt so much when all of those guys break your heart."

"And that's why I needed you all of the time. You took all of that pain away. Thank you." I cried a little into his shirt.

"You're welcome. Hey let's do something. To help cheer you up." I nodded and we got up. I hugged him one more time. "So what do you want to do?" I honestly don't care what we do but as long as I'm with Connor I'll be happy...he's always made me happy. And I hope we always will.

A/N: Sorry for taking so long to update and sorry for the boring chapter. I've had the most stressful school week of my life so yeah...sorry again I love you