Heartbreak Girl~Cethany {DISCONTINUED}

Chapter 23

~Connor's POV~:
2 months. That's how long I was without my best friend. Beth wasn't lying when she said that she needed to be alone. But she came back. She still loves me and I still love her. That's a strong word. Love. We fell in love fast I guess. It didn't take much time and it lasted throughout the roughest part of our relationship. The thing that took me by surprise was how she just ran up to me. She looked fine these past 2 months like what happened had no affect on her. She didn't look like me, beaten and hurt. She looked content with life and at peace. So I hesitated when she hugged me. I didn't think it was real. The only thing I thought would prove her feelings towards me was to kiss her. Once we had that small light kiss, after the one that caused us to hit our forehands against each other, I felt that spark again. I felt alive again. She actually missed me.

After school that same day we drove separate cars to my house. Once we both got inside I ran up the stairs to my room with her hand holding mine. We got in and I shut the door behind her. Confidence was rushing through me and adrenaline caused me to do more then I had planned.

I pushed Beth gently against the door with my hands on her hips. I leaned in and kissed her passionately. I missed her for to long not to. She kissed back placing her hands on my chest. My hands moved up her sides slowly, causing her to breathe deeply until my hands reached her cheeks. We continued to kiss right there. She began to tug at my shirt wanting me to take it off. I didn't want to get to far right now but I took off my shirt. Guys take off their shirts all the time it's no big deal.

Then she flipped us so I was against the door. Her hands had moved to my cheeks as well. We continued to kiss like that. Her hands felt my bare chest sending chills down my spine. I haven't done this with any girl before in my life. I'm wondering if she's done this with other guys. That would make sense I guess since she's had a million boyfriends.

I pulled away at the thought of her doing this to other guys. I scratched the back of my neck and walked over to my bed, sitting down. Beth joined me with a worried expression on her face. "What did I do?" She asked instantly knowing I was bothered by something she did.

"Nothing...it's just..." I took a deep breath and sighed. "I'm just wondering I guess about how many guys you've done that to..." I sighed again.

Beth looked at me confused. "Connor I don't just kiss people like that. Not just anyone. They have to be I don't know...I have to love them a lot to do something like that. Connor I don't know what you think but I'm not some crazy whore who goes around having sex with every guy I can...I'm still actually a virgin. And we didn't even get to that point...your shirt was off that's it. I've kissed people like that before but only a few times and to be honest you're the best kisser. I've felt that way about you ever since our first kiss after you sang me that song on your guitar." She spoke quietly sounding a bit sad at times.

"I'm sorry." I said after sitting in silence for a little while.

She looked up at me, "Why are you sorry?"

"Because I assumed you did things like that all of the time and that we were nothing special..." I didn't make eye contact with her beautiful brown eyes.

"Connor it's okay...I get why people would think that. I'm sorry to be honest..."

"Why are you sorry Beth you haven't done anything..."

"You deserve someone else...someone better then me. I'm a mess and I'll just keep screwing up your life...you shouldn't be with someone like me." She spoke slowly and with slight hurt in her voice. I grabbed her waist and pulled her closer to me. She rested her head on my shoulder as I stroked her hair gently. She had taken it out of the braid it was in earlier.

"Bethany I'm not going to be with someone who's not you. You should know that by the way I've been acting. I love you for who you are. We have both made poor choices and I don't want to be with anyone but you. Don't ever think that you screw up my life. I blame my emotions for that not you. I love you Beth. And that's not going to change." I squeezed her tightly with one arm.

"I love you too." She whispered softly. "Thank you."

"You're welcome." I said kissing her forehead. We are a pretty dramatic couple but that just means we have a lot of emotion between us. I'd rather have that then having no emotion. I'll take drama over no connection. I don't know. I'm just happy I guess.