Heartbreak Girl~Cethany {DISCONTINUED}

Chapter 20

~Derek's POV~:
Bethany is coming over. She finally agreed. Good. I need to apologize. I need to get her back. I really messed up. Alyssa was a stupid mistake. And we didn't even do anything but kiss once and go out on a simple date. But that was enough to push Beth away...

The doorbell rang and I heard a faint knock at the door. She's here. I better not screw this up. I opened the door and there she stood as beautiful as always. She shivered in the winter cold, it's California but hey it gets cold here. I quickly invited her in so she'd stop freezing. Step 1 of fixing a relationship: don't let the girl freeze before you fix it. Step 2: fix it.

"Okay Derek...you have my attention. Don't make me regret giving you a second chance." She raised an eyebrow and crossed her arms.

I cleared my throat, "Um Bethany I think we should talk upstairs...in my room. Little more private since our maid likes to listen in on conversations." I whispered the last part. Bethany gave me an 'are you serious?' look then nodded in agreement. We walked up the stairs and stood in front of my closed bedroom door.

What Bethany doesn't know is that I set up something special in my room to show how much I care for her. I opened the door then stood aside so she could walk in before me. When she saw the room her eyes widened and her hands covered her mouth. I saw a faint crinkle of a smile on her cheeks. She began to cry a little, hopefully they were tears of joy.

The room was dark...the only light provided was from the candles I had lit and placed all over the room. There was also a faint light coming in from the window. Then there were red rose petals everywhere and paper hearts I had cut out were taped to the walls. She turned to face me and gave me a hug. She squeezed me tight and wiped her cheeks after releasing from my arms. It felt good to hug her again.

"Derek...this is beautiful. Nobody has ever done anything like this for me before...it's...amazing. Thank you." Her words brought joy to my heart. I grabbed her hand and made her sit next to me on my bed. Now here comes the talking part.

"Bethany...I never should have hurt you and I'd be lying if I said that was never my intention...I'm a player...or was a player. I've cheated on many girls and broken many hearts. Whenever I hurt a girl like that it used to bring me this feeling of power and control. But when I did it to you...it brought me pain. I felt like I had lost everything. And I know I hurt you...I know because of that feeling, but what I didn't get was why you? Why were you the one to change me? To make the evil things I had done hurt me...it didn't make any sense. Then I thought about it. The other girls were never like you. They all wanted to have sex and use my wealth for themselves...they were all as evil as me, but you? You're pure. You saw only the good in me. You wanted a strong relationship, a hand to hold and a shoulder to cry on. You didn't care about my wealth or my body. You cared about me, as a person. So hurting those other girls felt good, because I was hurting those who had bad intentions, but hurting you was wrong. It was wrong because you were kind and had good intentions. I became the evil one. And now I see that. I see all of my wrongs. You opened my eyes. You made me a better person. And I don't want to lose you again, because you are a constant reminder of the good in the world. So please forgive me even though I don't deserve it. I need you. I need you more then I've ever needed anyone...please." She had tears in her eyes and my hands were squeezing hers'.

She didn't respond so I leaned in and kissed her. She lightly kissed back then pulled away, looking at her lap. "Bethany what's wrong." She avoided all eye contact and tears still continued to stream down her face. "Bethany...please tell me what you're thinking right now." My right hand held her cheek.

"Connor..." Her voice cracked and that one name spilled from her lips. She didn't continue.

"What about Connor? Connor Franta? Bethany why are you talking about him right now?"

"Because...when you...when you ripped my heart out on Friday I went to him and he...he made me feel better. He's always helped me after someone breaks my heart. He's always there...we kissed. We've kissed multiple times since Friday...and I really like him. But I also still have feelings...for you." She finally looked up at me. "What you did here and what you said...it makes me want to kiss you again and never stop but I can't...because Connor...it would destroy him and I still like him too. You both have different ways of acting in this world and I can't help but love both of you...and it's wrong. I know that. So Derek I forgive you but we can't be a thing right now...and I'll have to tell Connor the same thing. I'm sorry. I really am...thank you for all of this. Maybe soon we can be together again but I can't pick between two people...that's not fair. I'm sorry but I have to go." Her words killed and relieved me. She forgives me but she can't go back to where we were...she hugged me quick then got up. "Goodbye Derek..." She left after that.

When I heard her car pull away I got mad, and frustrated really. I blew out all of the candles and chucked them at my wall. Then I ripped all of the paper hearts in half. All of these combined won't cover the pain I feel right now. My heart aches like a million broken hearts...I love Bethany Mota but she can't love me. Just that thought is enough to kill me.

A/N: So it's officially Christmas Day in Minnesota since it's nearly 1 am so Merry Christmas!!! And to those who don't celebrate it...happy random Thursday!!! So I'll be writing a Christmas chapter that will be up later today so yay! Um so I still have a filler or two before that but I have to go to bed soon...I have one other fanfic to update then I'm sleeping. I'll be back later I swear!!! I'm getting up in seven hours anyway to open gifts so I'll see you sometime after that I swear!!! Okay goodnight I love all of you and thanks for all of the reads it means sooooo much!!! Okay merry Christmas and goodnight for a while!!! (And merry Christmas Eve to all of those who are in time zones that are still waiting for it to be Christmas Day)