The One That Got Away-s.rj x c.js

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A hard slap brought me back to reality as I look at my friend, Mav.

"Stop zoning out, you idiot."

I shook my head and stood up. It must be our break time that's why she's so pissed.

"Where are you going?" I looked at her, puzzled as she stated her question. "Kart is outside, he look pissed." I exited our classroom only to see a pissed guy while holding a black shirt.

"I told you to get the large size! Why did you give me this?!" He threw the shirt at me. I'm tired and I can't handle his bullshits anymore. "If you don't want it bring it back nicely!" I shouted and went inside again bringing the shirt with me. We caused a commotion outside I know. Nothing new, we're always the talk of the town because of him being such a douchébag.

"Why don't you just break-up with him? He's too much! You shouldn't be with a guy like him, he's such a..." Mav sighed as I stare at her blankly. I looked at the shirt I am holding, I gave this to him this morning and instead of saying thank you he shouted at me. I sat down on my chair and started to think where did it all go wrong.

We are together for more than two years now but we aren't like those usual couple that are so in love with each other. He asked me to be his girlfriend after a month of knowing me, even though I wasn't really in love with him I answered yes. The first six months of our relationship went smooth. He was nice to me, he took me out on dates and showered me with his attention. He made my heart flutter but It all changed when he saw me with one of my guy cousins. He thought that I was cheating and never really listened to my explanation. After that incident, he became cold and ill-tempered. He asked for a break-up and I gave it to him, I never felt hurt whenever he's angry at me nor when he don't text me. I never felt sad whenever he say hurtful words to me, It just made me mad.

I felt a hard slap on my cheeks as I start to get lost in my own thoughts.

"Stop overthinking, Yuri." Den told me. I smiled awkwardly and stood up. We headed to the canteen silently. As usual, it's crowded and noisy. After buying some food, we walked back again to our designated classroom.

The day went pretty fast. It's already class dismissal.

"Yuri!" I looked around as I heard someone call my name. I saw Jay and Cleo running towards my direction.

"Your legs are so fast, gosh." Cleo exclaimed as she breathe heavily. I smiled and hugged them both. We talked and laughed a lot as we walked.

"Yuri." I heard that familiar voice which made me angry. "What?" I replied coldly. I looked at him and waited for him to talk. Jay and Cleo stayed by my side and waited too.

"Can we talk privately?"

"We can talk right here, right now."

"I...I want a break-up."

"Okay then, goodbye. Don't bother me again." I agreed and left him standing there. Cleo and Jay were shocked.

"Are you sure about what you did?" Cleo asked me.

"Yes. I'm tired of his bullshits and I don't even know why agreed to be his girlfriend two years ago. I never loved him." The truth came out. I never actually loved him in the first place. I stayed in a relationship without involving love.

"Wha...But...Why did you stay if you don't love him?" Cleo asked.

"I don't know." I looked at them blankly, not showing any emotion.

"I think It's alright." I looked at Jay with a hint of confusement.

"I think the break-up is alright. I think staying without involving love is alright. Love is not a feeling, It's a commitment." Jay said which hit me hard and our first six months played in my mind.

I did. I actually did love him. But only for a short span of time. I loved him but my heart chose to move-on as It starts to feel hurt. I stayed for comfort, not for love.

I felt a hard slap again as I get lost with my thoughts.

"Your driver is here." Cleo said. I opened the door and the two entered the car after I sat in the middle of the backseat.

"I actually did..." The two looked at me with their eyebrows colliding with each other. "I actually did love him. But my heart chose to move-on. I stayed for comfort and not for love." I said revealing my thoughts.

They interrogated me the whole ride which I answered truthfully. After dropping them off their houses, we headed home.

"Baby boy!" I shouted after opening the door of our house. My younger brother ran to me and jumped as he hug me. I hugged him back and kissed his cheeks. I walked upstairs and went to my room. I sat down at my bed and looked around my room. I got no pictures of him in my room nor pictures of us. I don't have any, even in my phone. I didn't like to take photos of me with somebody else, I never liked it actually. I love photography but me as a model? a big no. I sighed as I think of what happened earlier. The break-up, It doesn't make me sad or mad or anything. I feel nothing towards it. I feel nothing towards him. I took out the shirt he returned or more like, he threw at me this morning. I removed my uniform and went to the bathroom to wash myself. I wore the shirt and paired it with a sweatpants. I stared at my reflection in the mirror. My eyes looked cold, my lips are dry and my face isn't happy nor sad. I'm emotionless. I washed away my thoughts as I washed my face. And decided to divert my attention.

I went downstairs and played with my brother at the living room.

"Noona, you look sad." He stated.

"I'm not sad, saeng." I told him and smiled.

"Did your boyfriend made you sad?" I looked at him and told him I don't have a boyfriend anymore. He cutely covered his mouth out of shockness. I smiled purely and kissed him on his cheek.

"I should have told your boyfriend to not make you sad, noona. But you never brought him here." My family knows I have a boyfriend but I never brought him in our house because I go with what my father said. If you brought a boyfriend or a girlfriend in your house to meet your parents, It means you're already sure that you'll marry each other.

"It's alright, saeng. We're over now, I'll be happier without him." I smiled purely at his innocence.

"You promise?" He showed his pinky finger and I gladly linked my pinky finger with his. He hugged me and kissed my cheek. "You already promised me, noona. You should be happier and not sad, okay? I'm going to be mad if you're sad. I'm going to scold whoever makes you cry." He's so innocent and his love for me is so pure. I'm glad that my brother is him.

"Yes, I will be happier and not sad. But what if I cry from happiness?" I asked him.

"It's alright but if you cry because of sadness, I'll sue the one who made you cry." I laughed at his statement, he smiled at me and hugged me.

"I love you, noona."

"I love you too, saeng."