The One That Got Away-s.rj x c.js

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Like what she always do these past dew days, she waited for me inside the gym. But I hate the fact that the guy 'Soobin' is with her always. Even here in the gym.

I've been practicing my kicks for an hour. Various thickness of wooden pads are in front of me. I glanced at their direction and saw how Soobin touch her arm once in a while. My blood boiled at the sight.

"Ya!" I shouted loud and kicked the highest one—the same position of what I broke earlier.

I heard murmurs as the wooden pieces flew away. They're praising me for doing such act. I popped my neck for a while and shoved those insecurity from my mind. I need to focus for the upcoming City Meets.

I faced the heaviest punching bag and started kicking it. After a few minutes, it shook and the chains above screeched too. Maybe I used too much force. I stopped for a bit and held the moving punching bag to prevent it from falling off.

I positioned myself again and kicked it continuously using different kicking techniques. Beads of sweat formed in my forehead as I continue it. It started to shook again and I didn't hesitate to make it swing.

"Ya!" I shouted once again after kicking it a forceful kick. It swung madly and made the chains almost fall off.

"Be careful, Yuri!" Coach Hwang half-shouted. I nodded as an answer and moved on to a standing foamed dummy. I started to attack it with my combinations. The sound of punches ringed around the gym.

"Halt!" We all stopped. I guess it's dismissal time.

We all stood in the middle and waited for coach Hwang's dismissal lecture before bowing our heads down. We, the senior students, stood in front of the rest and bowed after coach Hwang did.

I went straight to the locker room with my gear and gym bag. I put my gear inside the locker and changed my inner wear after removing my dobok top. I exhaled heavily before going out. I saw how Soobin bid his goodbye to Vin. It made my fist clench and my jaw tighten.

I walked straight to her and pulled her arms.

"Hey." She retreated her arm from my hold and looked at me straight in the eyes. I met her confused gaze.

"What's wrong?" She asked softly. I hate this! Just a soft call like that from her, I'll melt.

"Nothing." I then answered and walked again. She didn't bother to ask me again and stayed silent the whole time. I can feel the tension around us.

"You know—"

"What's the—"

"You go first." She said. I closed my eyes before exhaling loudly.

"Cut Soobin off." I plainly said.

"Wait! What?"

"Cut Soo—"

"I fully understand what you said but why?" She looked at me with a confused face.

"I'm jealous of him." There I said it.

"Wha—Why? I've told you already he's just a friend. Don't you trust me?"

"I trust you but I don't trust him." I looked at her sternly.

"He's a good guy. He treats me food. He comforts me. He accompany me when you're—"

"That's it. He come whenever I'm not around. Don't you find it suspicious?" I frustratedly asked.

"You know what? You're being unreasonable and childish!" She replied at the same manner.

"Yeah right, I'm childish because I'm fucking insecure that he can be with you all the time and I can't!" I ran my fingers in my hair, trying to calm myself.

"I told you already don't be jealous!"

"How can I fucking do that when I always see you with him, acting like a fucking couple?! Touching you and laughing with you!" That's it. I'm fucking pissed.

"How can I fucking do that if you don't even do anything to made me stop my jealousy for that fucking guy?!" My breathe became ragged.

"How can I fucking do that if I can clearly see him flirting with you, and here you are just fucking letting him?!" I felt my veins pop out as I rant it all out.

"How can I...do that if you're always with him...I'm jealous. I'm fucking jealous because of this fucking stupid insecurity!" I can't stop it anymore. I let my tears flowed freely. I felt like my heart is being squeezed as the memories of them together played in my mind.

"I'm...I'm sorry. You know that I can't—"

"Yeah right, you're too fucking nice that you can't even shoo him away for me." I laughed at myself. How can I let this insecurity eat me?

"It's just he's a good friend."

"Fuck that reason! If you can't made him at least be distant like a tiny bit, I'm out! Call me fucking selfish or anything! But I'm done, I've learnt my lesson. I swore that I'm never letting anyone break me again, but here comes you." I turned my back after saying those words. My heart started to become heavy as I walk away from her. I can't believe we had our first fight just before our first monthsary.

I walked home silently. I went straight to my room and cried my eyes out.

"How nice? Tiredness, shuffled thoughts, and a heavy heart." I sarcastically said to myself. I removed all my clothes and decided to get a warm bath. This shall do it. I have an extra training tomorrow and I wish not to see that blue-haired girl for a moment. I still feel the heaviness of my heart.

I closed my eyes and the scene of them laughing played in my mind. Hot drops of water poured out from my eyes. I stayed in that position and let all my tears flow. This shit better be finished after I cried my eyes out.

After a bearable amount of time under the warm shower, I slipped in my hoodie and sweatpants before heading downstairs to eat. Dinner was already served when I came. Various foods are in the table but I can't seem to find my appetite. I ate a little before going back to my room. I glanced at my opened walk-in closet and saw the plain white door. I stood up and entered my safe haven.

It has been so long since I visited this place. I grabbed a guitar and a certain blue notebook lying above the guitar amplifier. My written songs came in sight. I browsed through it until I saw a blank page. I guess a sad song is what I will do to express my feelings.

I started to made up some chord progression and did the strumming patters. I hummed as I strum the strings, trying to find the best melody that fit the chords. As I settle with a chill yet sad melody along with the chords, words started to appear in my mind but a certain thing caught my eye.

A note that is placed on my recording booth's glass pane. A note from her. A happy note from her. Her, who hurt my heart at the very moment. I laughed bitterly. What happened to my promise to myself? A promise that I won't let anyone walk inside my heart and demolish the walls that I was starting to build.

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A/N:

Here's for today! Hope you enjoy it! Sorry if you're uncomfortable with the curses ㅋㅋㅋ Keep safe everyone!