Competition in your heart! [YiZhan/ZhanYi FF]✔️

-12- In the greenery

-12- In the greenery

After we ate and it was very tasty, we spent two hours rehearsing the song that the production gave us. And the more often we sang it, with the matching melody, the more I liked the song. There was something about it that caught me.

When we were done with the rehearsals for now and also made some videos of it, we went outside with the camera. Although it is still quite cold at this time of year, after all it is the end of winter, it was nice outside.

The sun shone high in the sky and even warmed us a little bit. So we decided to go for a long walk and rehearse the song one or two times.

And as we walked through the countryside like this, each with earphones in our ears and listening to the melody of the song, we sang our lyrics to it and I felt like I was taken back to an old time when Zhan and I walked through the country side by side before.

A really strange and yet familiar feeling. The song is really made for us and should probably only be sung by us.

We were walking along the edge of a forest when I noticed a horrible smell. I had never smelled anything like this before and the further we walked, the worse it got. I looked at Zhan and asked him if he could smell it too and Zhan nodded.

"It's probably some dead animal lying around here rotting away somewhere." He said dryly while my stomach was turning.

I had no intention of meeting this stinking dead animal, so I took Zhan by the hand and dragged him behind me, straight into a field and on to a small group of trees made of large and probably very old oaks and chestnuts.

Zhan leaned against one of the big trees and looked up at the sky. His face was shining under the rays of the sun, which made him look even more like an angel. I had to swallow hard and tried once more not to stare at him all the time.

"Are you comfortable, ZhanZhan?" I want to know from him. Zhan lowers his head and looks me straight in the eyes, smiles and nods his head.

"Sure, this is a really wonderful day. The sun is so nice and warm and it charges the body with energy. And apart from that, this place here is really beautiful. I wouldn't want to live here permanently, at least not while I'm still young, but I could imagine living in a place like this later."

"Mm. It's really beautiful here." I say so and stand next to Zhan at the tree. As wide as the tree trunk is, we couldn't even hug it in pairs.

We make another video. I hold the little camera and watch Zhan run through the trees. "It's like a little paradise." Says Zhan. I end the recording but keep the camera pointed at Zhan. With the zoom of the camera, I can get a good look at his face and even see that cute little mole under his lower lip.

Zhan came towards me again and I lowered the camera when I saw him applying a lip balm. I asked him what flavor it was and he kept coming towards me and saying it was pineapple.

I told him I loved pineapple and asked if I could try it. Zhan leaned his back against the tree again and pulled me towards him. I looked at him in confusion and he smiled, "Do you want a taste or not?"

What the hell was that all about?

Zhan took a step forward and pushed me against the tree.Then he stood close to me and asked me again, "Do you want a taste?" I swallowed hard, licked my own lips and nodded.

Then Zhan leaned forward and kissed me. At first I was frozen, but then two or three seconds later, my brain realized what was happening and I kissed him back.

I pulled Zhan towards me and put my left arm around his hip and with my right hand, I touched his cheek. I could have screamed as Zhan released the kiss after about three minutes and asked me how the balm tasted.

But instead of screaming I said, "I'm not sure. Maybe I should try it again." And Zhan nodded with a grin. I placed my lips back on his and turned Zhan around so that he was now standing by the tree again.

No idea how long we stood there kissing, and my body was longing for him more and more. But when we finally released the kiss, the sun was already about to set again.

We didn't talk about the kiss, but went hand in hand back to the wooden house. Zhan and I cooked something together. That means he cooked and I helped cut the ingredients. Filmed a little bit while we were cooking, and also while we were eating and after that we rehearsed the song again in the rehearsal room and after our day in the country, it suddenly took on a completely different dynamic. It really sounds like it comes from our hearts now.

We finished the rehearsals only around midnight. While Zhan was watching another video on YouTube, I went to take a shower and only now I realized that Zhan approached me this time. He kissed me, he wanted to be kissed!

An uncontrollable tingling in my stomach developed and the happiness hormones in my body almost made me cheer loudly. My heart was beating so fast that I was afraid it would jump out of my chest.

After the shower I went to bed, I watched the official music video of my group, which has just been released. After that, I watched the first music video of XNINE and one of Zhan, where he is alone on stage singing a ballad.

As soon as the last video was finished, Zhan came into the bedroom. I put away my phone and held the blanket up for him. Even though the heating is on in every room, it is quite fresh in this house. Or it was because of our walk. Because towards the end, when the sun was gone, we froze quite violently.

Zhan slipped into the bed to me and lay on his back. I also lay on my back and spread my arms. "Do you want to snuggle up now or wait till you're asleep?" I asked him with a grin.

But instead of answering my question, Zhan turned to me and snuggled up against me. I pulled him to me on my body, covered us properly and put my arms around him. " Did you like that?" That's what I wanted to know.

"Mn. Perfect" said Zhan and rubbed his head against my chest.

"You ZhanZhan?"

"Hmm?"

"That was the second time we kissed today. Remember last Saturday?" I thought maybe he forgot about it because he was drunk.

"Yeah, I lost a bet. You won and your prize was a kiss."

"Yes, exactly. Um, what do we do now? Well, about us."

"Honestly, I don't know. A relationship would be bullshit because after the contest you'll go back to Korea and I'll stay here."

"But the flight to and from Korea does not take that long. We could still see each other."

"Yibo, think of all our appointments, commitments, training, performances. How can that work? When do you think we'd find time together to see each other?"

It hit me straight in the heart. Of course, I've thought about it a lot myself. But to hear it now from the mouth of the man I love, who is lying on top of me right now, it feels like someone is sticking a knife in my chest and turning it back and forth.

One minute I was happy, but now I could just cry. Why does life have to be so hard? Why can't anything for once be easy?