Competition in your heart! [YiZhan/ZhanYi FF]✔️

-39- The whole truth

-39- The whole truth

My mother came into the room, sat down next to me on the bed and stroked my head. "What's wrong Yibo? Tell me what happened." She asked me anxiously while I lay my head on her lap and cried bitterly.

And I said, sobbing, "Mom, he's engaged!"

She stroked my back and said, "I know."

I raised my head and looked at her questioningly and she smiled. "I know you don't remember."

"What are you talking about, Mom?" I asked her confused.

"I'm going to tell you a story now and hope I can fill in the many big memory gaps you have. Okay?"

"Okay, Mom."

"Well, here's the thing. Your father and I were living with your brother at that time with our best friends. We didn't have our own apartment because your father had no job and I had been pregnant with you. And our friends had a big house and they took us in willingly.

Four days after your birth, our friends wanted to come and visit me in the hospital, because you were born by cesarean section and therefore I was not allowed to leave the hospital yet.

My best friend was also highly pregnant at that time and should have one more month until the birth of her child. But as soon as they were in the hospital, she suddenly had a contraction and gave birth to a healthy boy just one hour later.

Suddenly my best friend was lying next to me in the room and we thought it would be sweet to let you and her newborn son sleep in the same bed. And the very next day, you didn't want to sleep without him. You cried like crazy when we put you in your own crib.

Even when we were allowed to go home, you always made a fuss when your best friend wasn't lying next to you. We thought it would wear off eventually. But it didn't.

After a year and a half we tried again and put you two in your own beds separately. But since you shared a room, you broke out of your cot and crawled into your best friend's cot.

You simply refused to sleep without your Bunny. You never used his real name since he once wore bunny-ear pajamas. From then on, he was your Bunny and no one was allowed to touch your Bunny.

You guys were almost like Siamese twins and you did everything together. You dressed the same, you ate the same way and you moved the same way. Only your looks made you different.

In kindergarten you pushed away the children who came close to your Bunny and scolded them. And even at the age of four you still shared a bed. Your Bunny always slept with his head on your belly or your back and when he wasn't lying there, you clung to him with your arms and legs.

Then just before your sixth birthday, your father finally got a good job, but we had to move for it. You were a complete mess of nerves. You cried day and night and refused to let go of your bunny.

You even got really sick and the pediatrician said it was psychological. But it was no use, we had to move. And you had to let go of your Bunny.

But you had a serious word with your Bunny's parents before we left. You said when Bunny turns 20, you'd come back and marry your Bunny. His parents said you couldn't just decide that and you'd have to ask your Bunny. So you knelt down in front of him and asked him if he wanted to marry you on his 20th birthday. And your Bunny said yes. Just so.

And because the parents of your Bunny are very strict and take promises very seriously, they made a contract with you. You signed it with your thumbprint.

From then on, you and your Bunny were engaged.

Unfortunately your Bunny had or should I say Xiao Zhan had a bad car accident and doesn't remember anything. Neither do you. Because in addition to Zhan and his grandpa, my little runaway was in the car with them. The little Yibo that Zhan and his grandfather wanted to bring home and then the accident happened.

You can't remember many things either, because like Zhan you were injured in the head and so much has happened in the past years that it is probably normal that you have forgotten many things.

But, Zhan's parents, your dad and I, were still in touch and we were only a little surprised when we found out that you found each other and came together.

I wanted to tell you right away who Zhan really is and tell you about your past. But unfortunately I was overruled. Zhan's parents said there was still time, and your dad hoped you would remember on your own.

Anyway, the fact is, you and Zhan were meant to be together from the day he was born. And your dad and I often regretted breaking you two up. Especially when you kept running away and trying to get back to your Bunny.

Until you finally did it. But Dad and I insisted that they bring you back. Even though they offered to take you back several times. But we are your parents, and we wanted you with us.

We were also happy to know that your head injury made you forget many things. Because we thought you were finally going to have a normal life. But unfortunately that was just wishful thinking. Your subconscious remembered very well and you became more and more silent and distant. You stopped laughing and became very cold and reserved.

And when you wanted to go to Korea at the latest, your dad and I had to realize that we made a big mistake.

All you wanted was your Bunny. With him you were happy, you were warm, attentive, loving and you laughed so much. But when we take away your Bunny, we also take away a part of your personality.

I'm really sorry we did this to you. Even today I remember how we both had to tear you two apart and from that day on, you were no longer the boy we knew.

I've wanted to give you your memories back for so long, but I didn't know how, and your dad said it was better if you remembered yourself.

But now I can't just stand by and watch and wait. Because all by yourself you have found your Zhan again, won him back for yourself and you have really fallen in love with each other.

You belong together and you always have."

While my mother was still telling me all this, my memory came back and I even remembered Zhan's bunny sleep suits.

"What would you have done if I didn't remember until Zhan's birthday? If Zhan and I had secretly broken up without your knowledge? What Mom?"

"We would have told you, really. You must believe me."

"Believe you? You've been hiding all this from me for years. For years! I fell in love with Zhan over two years ago! I've been suffering from my unrequited love for him for two years. And earlier today I said to Zhan that I might not want to have a relationship with him at all! How can I look him in the eye now when he learns that I am the one for whom he had fought with his parents for years, because he is engaged to one person, and can't remember anything?"

"Yibo, please. Zhan loves you and I'm sure his parents will explain it to him. I'll tell them I told you all and they will help you."

"No, Mom. I don't know if I really want to do that to Zhan. I don't want to force him to marry me."

"Yibo..."

I didn't let my mother speak any further. I got up, got dressed and left the apartment. I need time to process all this. Time to think about what I'm supposed to do now.

Zhan and I were just kids then, how could they take it all seriously? How can I expect Zhan to marry me? I hardly think he will be pleased when he learns that I am his fiancé and I am to blame for all his anger and stress.

I don't know what to do now. But I can't look Zhan in the eye right now, nor do I want to hear anything from my parents!