Competition in your heart! [YiZhan/ZhanYi FF]✔️

-37- Celebrated and painful farewell

-37- Celebrated and painful farewell

When we got up in the morning, I was afraid to go into the internet at first. I already assumed that the hatred against Zhan and me started. But my curiosity was stronger than my fear, just like Zhan.

So we went with our mobile phones into the internet and the first thing I read was: Worldwide fans and homosexuals celebrate the outing of Wang Yibo and Xiao Zhan at the big final show.

And: Wang Yibo confesses his love to Xiao Zhan live on TV, very brave!

As well as: Only one thing was even better than the final show, the love confession of Wang Yibo to his boyfriend, Xiao Zhan! We congratulate you both and support you!

There were many more articles about this. There was only one negative article, but not concerning Zhan and me, but because the second place winners went away empty-handed. The headline was: "Winners of hearts! Second place goes empty."

Our managers also called us, last night they sent us back to the motel without saying anything. They told us that our love outing has hit like a bomb and that there are only positive reactions so far.

Surely there were also hate and homophobic comments, but 80% of them were positive.

Zhan's biggest fear was that his career could be damaged if people found out about us and now, suddenly, things turned out completely different than he had feared. He is celebrated. Or rather we are being celebrated worldwide.

The show was broadcast live worldwide and now everyone knows that Zhan and I are a couple. And only a few people are against our relationship. How great is that?

I'm really excited to see how many people will follow our example. I admit, I didn't think and just acted. But now I'm proud of myself and proud that Zhan has stood and stands up for us.

My family also wrote to me, they wrote that they are proud of me and no matter what happens, they will stand behind me and also behind Zhan.

Unfortunately Zhan and I didn't have much time, we packed our suitcase and then had to make our way to the hostel. We wanted to have breakfast together with the others and then we had to say goodbye.

Because XNINE has another appointment at a radio station this lunchtime. And we leave at about 2 pm.

I already have a stomachache when I think about the farewell afterwards. I do not want to say goodbye.

Punctually at 9 am we arrived at the hostel. The others expected us already with breakfast. It was covered plentifully, but I was actually not at all hungry.

With tears in my eyes I ate a bread roll with cheese and an egg, more I could not get down. My heart ached so much that I had to get up from the table and leave the dining room.

I couldn't do that, I couldn't sit there and smile while thinking that I have to say goodbye to Zhan in an hour. I could only cry. My stomach hurts and my heart. How can I laugh?

Zhan followed me and took me in his arms. I think the last time I cried so hard, was when I had to say goodbye to my best friend. I feel like screaming. But I lack the strength for that.

I knelt on the floor and cried. Zhan was bent over me and tried to calm me down. I've never felt so desperate, so scared and sad.

When there was a knock at the door and someone shouted to Zhan that it was time, I clung to Zhan and did not want to let him go. I held him in my arms for two more minutes, kissed him again and again, but then he had to go.

Zhan wiped his tears from his eyes, kissed my forehead and then left. When he closed the door behind him, I sat down by the door and cried. I felt heartbroken and even as Seungyoun sat on the other side of the door trying to calm me down, I couldn't stop crying.