Competition in your heart! [YiZhan/ZhanYi FF]✔️

-28- The end of the duos

-28- The end of the duos

Tonight, Zhan and I had our last performance as a duo. I still can't believe it's over now and the competition is just starting for the remaining six bands.

Like every other time, Zhan and I won again tonight. This time we got two new bikes.

The eight weeks have gone by so fast that I can hardly believe it. Eight weeks in which Zhan and I were on stage as a duo week after week. Eight weeks that Zhan and I are now a couple.

And today is not only the end of the duos. We had to say goodbye to our barn, which has become a home for us over the past six weeks.

Not only for Zhan and me, but also for Seungyoun and Wooseok, and also for Wenhan and Chuyue. Because these too were lucky and were chosen as a duo again and again.

The six of us lived in this barn, worked there, rehearsed, received guests and helpers. Together we took care of the animals and the garden and created many beautiful memories.

We learned so much in the last weeks, about cooperation, cohesion and prosperity. Because although we did not live in luxury and had to work hard, we did not miss anything.

And the bond between Zhan and me has also become very strong. Sometimes I only have to look at him and know immediately what he is thinking or feeling. We did everything together, we grew together and became stronger.

Nevertheless, Zhan still keeps his secret from me and the longer he remains silent, the more I worry about the future of our relationship.

He hasn't even told his parents about him and me, even though he has been talking to them on the phone at least twice a week. I am really worried and hope his secret will not break us up.

But first of all some information about the competition. Actually, it should have been six weeks. But it' s been reduced to three weeks. Now two music groups have to say goodbye every week.

In the third week the two finalists, which hopefully are Uniq and XNINE, will compete against each other in the big show final. Where Zhan and I will perform our song together.

Also, the music groups will be split up from today on. Two groups in each hotel. Hopefully XNINE will be in the same hotel as we are. So I can still see Zhan every day.

It's bad enough for me not to have Zhan with me every night anymore. I don't know how I can stand it after the last eight weeks when he is not with me.

The closer the end of the competition comes, and now it's only three weeks away, the more I realize that Zhan and I will have to say goodbye to each other soon. And now I also realize what Zhan meant when he said that feelings can take you higher than ever before, or take you to the deepest bottom of the ocean.

When I think of our goodbye, I feel like I'm trapped in the depths of the sea and no matter how hard I try to get to the surface, I can't make it and I suffocate very slowly.

This feeling frightens me, very frightening to me. That's why I have to find something not to lose Zhan. I have to find something so that he and I can stay together.

Because Zhan was right when he told me, "It will be harder than you think Yibo. We are both in music groups, always on the road, training, appointments or whatever else comes up. It's hard to find a time when you can make a phone call. How can we see each other if we don't even have time to talk?"

I had to leave behind a person who was important to me once and lost him, this will not happen a second time. It can't happen! Never again will I allow anyone or anything to separate me from what I love, what is in my heart!

Back to the topic. Our bus has just arrived, our suitcases are also already in there and to my joy, XNINE are getting into the bus with us. As Zhan came closer, I grabbed his wrist and pulled him into the seat next to me. Our managers looked at us grimly, but said nothing.

Already at the beginning of our short drive it was clear that we would not be taken back to the hotel. We were not taken to any hotel at all, but to a youth hostel. Not very big, but with a much bigger charm than the hotel.

And for the first time our managers showed something like humanity. Because when they announced the room arrangements and handed out the keys, they said that Zhan and I would share a room.

No one was surprised because everyone, including our managers, knows that Zhan and I are a couple and maybe they had already guessed that we would be seeing each other secretly at night. Anyway, I planned it that way.

The Modern Youth Hostel has two large rooms that we can use as rehearsal rooms. The manager showed us one room that XNINE gets and we followed her to the other room. Only Zhan did not want to come.

We were looking at the room when we heard someone playing on a piano. The leader went ahead to the first rehearsal room and we followed her like little chicks. And we were all amazed when we saw Zhan sitting at the piano playing a melody.

I recognized it immediately, of course, but the others had no idea and stared at him with eyes wide open.

Zhan didn't even notice us, he was so absorbed in the play. I had no idea that he could even play this song on the piano without having practiced it. I sat down with him and hummed the song softly.

"Is this your song?" My manager asked and I nodded.

"I only hear the melody, but even that suits you." Seungyoun said.

Well, I think he can judge that since he saw Zhan and me every day for the past few weeks. Zhan and I thought from the very beginning that this song suits us very well.

When we heard the melody for the first time, I got goose bumps and became very thoughtful.

Since the others wanted to know what kind of sound the original melody sounded, I played it on my mobile phone and while they were listening to the melody, they closed their eyes and let it really sink in.

But because the sound quality on a mobile phone isn't that great, the leader told me to play it on the system via Bluetooth. And so I did, we turned it up and gathered in the room. The speakers around us played the song and I immediately had goose bumps again.

In only three weeks Zhan and I will sing this song on the big stage of the final show and everyone will hear it then. I am curious how the reactions will be.

I made a new cover which is not so dark.