Special Someone (Erik Durm)

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Dear, you know what,

I failed. I failed on just doing such a simple thing.

Just to give an simple explanation to Karen why I had kissed her.

A simple, yet, I failed to do it.

I had repeated the same fucking mistake.

The same mistake why I am currently in this complex situation.

The same mistake that got me into this shitty situation.

Yes you can guess.

I did it again.

I don't even want to say it or I'll feel more bad than ever.

And the worst thing is, she kissed me back.

We were both really, really shitty.

I didn't know what I was doing and I'm pretty sure she didn't know what she was doing either.

It was done and we can't do anything about it.

And even worse than that,

We have almost gone too far.

I don't know what would happen if I didn't say her name at that moment when she had her hand under my fucking shirt, feeling my fucking muscles.

It had tingled but it was so fucking good to feel her fingertips trailing over my skin.

It had felt so good to finally had access to kiss that neck of hers.

Those swollen lips of her when we pulled apart.

What have I done?

Am I even allowed to do that?

What have I done to her?

Gavin, oh my God.

I am so sorry, mate.

I can't help it.

She's too. . .

I really didn't mean it to happen.

I am a devoted Christian for the love of God!

I am so sorry.

I can't do this.

E.D