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' Are you fucking kidding me Shad?! You went out clubbing knowing that I was ovulating!'

' I am sorry Neveah. Axel wanted to celebrate and it slipped my mind.'

' Slipped your mind? Slipped your mind?! How does something so important slip your mind?! Do you know how hard this is for me?'

' I know. It's hard for me too.'

' Hard for you?! Do you have to keep up with your ovulation? Have you ever had to inject yourself with stupid hormone injections. Have you?!'

' No but-'

' So you do not tell me that this is hard for you like it's not for me.'

' This is exactly what I mean. You're always in my ear about getting pregnant like I am not doing enough. I am trying but I cannot always be here when you want me to.'

' It's not when I want you to. It's when you should be here and there's no excuse whatsoever! for you not to be here.'

' Well we'll do it the next time you ovulate.'

' You think this is a game huh. Just because you're fine, you think I am a joke-'

' That's not what I think. I just know that all of this is unnecessary. We had Heaven without having to do any of this things.'

Neveah shook her head and did her best to calm down her emotions.

' That's different, she's a miracle baby. Even before her the doctor said that it wouldn't be easy for me to fall pregnant.'

' You did though and when the time comes it will happen. Just relax.'

' Do you even want to have another child anymore?'

Shad shrug his shoulders.

' Not if you're going to be a drill sergeant about it.'

He was not aware that she had heard him till Neveah bit down on her lip as it began to quiver and her eyes watered. Ever since she was a little girl she could not control her emotions and her lip always gave it away. She grabbed her handbag and walked out before her tears fell.

' Hi, Veah hun what is wrong?'

' I hate him. I fucking hate him.'

Ayanda could only guess that she was cussing and crying about Shadrach. They were always arguing about something.

' I'm sorry to just come over unannounced but I really needed someone to talk to before I strangled his insensitive ass.'

'It's no problem honey, what happened?'

Neveah explained to her friend the events of earlier that day.

' I am sure he didn't mean it like that honey.'

' He basically said he doesn't want to have another baby.'

' Veah, this is a stressful time for you both. During times like this we say things that we don't mean. Now I need you to stop stressing and crying because that won't help you.'

' I feel like since he's fine and his sperm count is all perfect, he might find someone with perfectly ripe eggs to have his kids-'

' Shad would never, he loves you.'

' Axe loved you but look what happened.'