(Magnus Haven #2) Bad Life, Bad Love (COMPLETED)

Chapter 30

Why does my life always goes wrong when it runs so smoothly now?

Everyone gasped, everyone gave me a shocking and worried look. Nabagsak ko ang kutsarang hawak at bumagsak ang panga. Ian caught my hand and squeezed it. It's like trying to tell me that it's okay. That I'll be okay.

But it will never be okay.

I quickly stood up and find my bag. My tears are falling now while searching for my phone. When I got it, it's also the time they seated beside me. Roni tried to hug me but I'm desperate to call Rajih. Now!

"Please.. Please answer me.." I beg. Even though I know he won't answer it anymore. Sander and Ian's just looking at me with those worried eyes. With those pity looks. I don't need any pity of someone now.

I want Rajih. I only want him. Want him to answer my goddamn calls! "Rajih naman.. Please answer my calls.." Wala na akong pakialam kung busy siya, kung kasama niya ang pamilya niya at masaya silang nagcecelebrate ngayon.

That explains why is he all happy, aside from today is his graduation. Maybe that's also the reason why he's smiling ear to ear. That he's getting married.

There's a lot of questions running inside my mind and the only way it could be answered is Rajih. Siya lang. Ngunit paano ko magagawa iyon kung ayaw na niyang sagutin ang mga tawag ko?

Sobrang tanga ko part na pinipilit ko pa rin, halos tatlong buwan na, tatlong buwan na niyang hindi sinasagot ang mga tawag ko kaya bakit umaasa ako na isang araw, sasagutin niya uli ang mga tawag ko?

"Freya... Stop, okay? You're making us worry so much.." Hindi ko pinansin ang mga salita nila at mabilis na tumayo.

I grabbed my bag quickly and exited to his home. I hear them calling my name, stopping me from wherever I'm going but I don't need my friends now.

Rajih's all I want now. And I won't ever forgive myself for watching him get tied to someone else.

***

"Rajih?! Rajih?! I'm here! Please talk to me! Rajih, please? Kausapin mo naman ako! Ayokong mabaliw.. Ayokong mawala ka kaya please? Rajih!"

Alam kong niloloko ko lang ang sarili dahil halos trenta minutos na akong nagsisisigaw sa harap ng bahay nila pero wala talagang sumasagot.

Napasandal nalang ako sa gate nila, umiyak nang umiyak. "R-rajih.. Please.. Hindi ko kaya.."

The thought of him getting married to someone else, after our three months break up was enough to rip my heart and soul apart. Hindi ko kaya. Hindi ko kakayanin.

"Rajih naman.. Answer my calls, then.. I don't deserve this.. I don't deserve to chase someone but fuck, I did that to you since I love you.. Pero.."

Bumagsak ako sa sahig, hinagkan ang sarili at umiyak nang umiyak. Am I really just here to get my heart broken how many times?

***

Sander will never lie to me.

Ian assured that to me after showing up days after his news shocked and tore me apart. "It's true. It's from their company and magiging hindi iyon totoo kung hindi sila ang naglabas ng statement."

That was his words to me when I asked him if he's just joking me around or not. For real, I'm hoping that he'll tell me that it's some kind of a prank or joke to me, baka sa paraan na iyon ay magiging okay ako.

But it wasn't.

"You said it's true, but how are they still not reporting it with the news?"  I blankly asked him.