(Magnus Haven #2) Bad Life, Bad Love (COMPLETED)

Chapter 7

There are many reasons for me to celebrate and be happy for where we are today. But I can't feel anything but agony to what will happen to us before we go back to the Philippines.

I can't still move on to what Rajih did last night. It still bothering me because of what I'm thinking. Did he wait for my updates on my stories and sent me a message? For what? To continue what he halted before?

Kahit anong pakiwari ko, alam kong hindi na dapat niya iyon ginagawa. Wala na akong updates sa banda nila, the only thing I know is he's there... waiting for me.

I don't want to leave him hanging, I tried acting like it's normal but it's bothering me to death. I simply replied: Yup! It really is.

Iyon lang ang sinend ko para kahit papaano.. maramdaman niyang hindi ko pinipilit ang sarili sa kaniya para hindi siya umasa. O para maging normal lang ang dating sa kaniya.

Agad din dumating si Ian pagka-send ko ng reply sa kaniya. Hindi ko na alam kung may reply ba siya o hindi na dahil never ko na binuksan ang data ko. Kahit paggising ko kanina ay puro picture lang ako.

I need to enjoy my remaining days here.. kasi alam ko na baka… mauuna na akong umuwi.

"Babe.." His voice is aglow. Sa tabi niya na ako umupo dahil may tour guide na kami na nasa tabi ng driver. Hindi na ako nagtanong kung paano niya nakuha iyon, I just let him do whatever he wanted here.

"Yeah?" I tried to pinch his hand in me. The only thing we could here is the car's noise and the talk of the tour guide and driver, na hindi namin maintindihan.

Nilapit niya ako sa kaniya at wala akong nagawa kundi sumandal sa kaniyang balikat. We stayed there like he didn't call me a while ago.

Kung kinakailangan kong gawin lahat ng mga bagay noong panahon na hindi ko pa naiisip lahat ng ito, gagawin ko. If this is really our last, I won't mind to pretend that I'm still happy with him

"Nothing.." Malakas ang kutob ko na may gusto siyang tanungin ngunit pinigilan niya lang ang sarili niya sa akin. Sumulyap nalang ako sa kaniya at hinalikan ang panga niya.

He tighten his grip to me. Afraid that he might lose me anytime.

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The first place we went is Dam Square. Sandali kong kinalimutan ang sakit at pag-aalala sa puso ko at hinayaan na mag-enjoy ang sarili. This will be my last time to go out of the country, hindi ko kayang bumili ng ticket abroad due to nag-iipon ako.

This is all Ian's expenses. He said that it's okay since ako ang majority na nagbayad sa first anniversary namin. At hindi naman ako nagsisisi na gumastos ako noon, it's a precious memory I'll bring for the rest of my life.

"Geniet er van!" The driver happily said to us.

Our tour guide laughed, I didn't get it. But Ian did. He just saluted to him and the car went away. The tour guide starts to mention things about the history of Dam Square. I do want to listen to him but I was taken aback by the high buildings around us. Maraming tao pero okay lang.

The color pallet of the buildings isn't pastel. It's something like dark selections, since it's old buildings here. And I prefer that way, with that, you can see the history of the place.

"I can take a picture for you.." Tour guide said. I asked Ian about his name and he said Sander. What a nice name.

Binigay namin sa kaniya iyong DSLR na dala ni Ian at pumwesto kami sa kung saan niya kami gusto mag-strike ng pose. We captured a lot of photos on National Monument until we continue our walk.

Una naming binista ay ang Royal Palace. I keep taking pictured while Ian is busy holding my waist and listening to Sander. Nang magsawa ako sa pagpicture sa palace, nakinig nalang ako.