Till The End

Chapter 36 - Sweet Melancholy

Our thinking is just a mere work of conscience which can be irrelevant sometimes in comparison to materiality. I don't want my freaking thoughts to ruin my present moments whose melioration lies within me. 

Where's Emi gone suddenly? While I was befogged in my thoughts Emi's gone. But... I can feel someone approaching me. As the footsteps closens my heartbeat fastens knowing the familiarity. I turn back to face those bosom eyes where my world lies. This time there's unspoken emotion in them. As soon as his gorgeous deep brown eyes meet mine I feel myself losing into them. The vexation subsides with love taking its place. Dressed in a black turtleneck sweater and a white long knee length jacket with his usual jeans, he's looking more enchanting, more beautiful. Why is he suddenly seeming so different? So intimate? The closing gap between us is triggering my cold creeps. For a moment he stares at my lips, the next moment his lips are on mine as he holds my face and neck at the same time shivering down my spine. I wonder for how long I have been longing for this. We are in the middle of the crowd but right now I don't care as I push myself harder into him wrapping his back. I moan at the feel of his velvety lips as they crush mine. I kiss him harder and harder and he grunt in pleasure. The hot touch of his tongue ignites the fire within my body. This amount of passion between us is taking me off guard while I'm amazed at the same time. Finally we release realizing the fiddly surrounding around us. As I touch my lips they are more swollen and tender now. "Where were you?" I manage to ask while I'm still finding it hard to breathe.

"I have something to show you", he replies massaging my cheeks. Releasing our embrace he brings out a rose from his back pocket and holds it in front of me. Rose is my favorite. "I forgot everything", he sounds neurotic. But I know he didn't complete what he wanted to say for which I allow him to speak without intervening.

"I know I'm not good when it comes to expressing feelings. I have no idea how to propose in a filmy way gathering crowd. But I tried. I tried really hard still I'm getting skittish now. I wanna be totally honest with you Eila. That day when Keith was proposing Sarah bending on knees giving bunch of roses, my eyes were glued on your face. There was urge mixed with denial of gratification. I wanna make you feel the same but you know your Robo. I am not able to come up with a filmy dialogue but it would be wrong if I say that I didn't try. I googled.. rehearsed but now I'm all blank. The moment I saw you now, I realized I don't need any preparation to confess my love for you. I know you can feel me even if I say nothing. But still I wanna say..

"Mrs.Eila D'Souza, I want you by my side in every step of my life. Someday you are broken, hurt or discouraged, I wanna be the first person to hold your hand and I wish the same from you. Even when we'll have wrinkles on our face I wanna kiss you with this much passion. I want you to know the darkest of me. I wanna enjoy every cosmic evolution of meteorites having you by my side. I wanna grow old with you. You are my first love and I want it to be my last ".  He passes the rose which I elatedly get hold of while he utters, "I LOVE YOU".

Has anyone ever made you feel this much special as if your existence is the greatest blessing in their life? If you have someone, then never hesitate to embrace them. Life will not give you such chances always. I can't be grateful enough for having him in my life. No combination of 26 alphabets can describe my feeling right now. I wrap my arms around his neck closing the inch of gap between us. I know my embrace is the biggest answer for him. We don't always need words to explain nor are the words capable of elucidating everything. I guess this particular relation is that of what we call Soulmates. This time I am not trying to supress my tears anymore. I allow them to dive. I believe tears are always the best repliers. They are the only epitome to express our soul where words fail. 

Right now I'm drowned in an ocean of sweet melancholy embracing the person I love the most. I wonder what I have done to have someone like him in my life. This boy brings out the best as well as the worst of me. But as said, nothing is permanent in this world of change. Every perfection bears an imperfection. Deep down in my heart I fear an imperfection to over shadow our perfect bond of love, trust and understanding. This restlessness is constantly driving me crazy from which I'm trying to get over but somehow I can't.

"Promise me that you'll never leave me?" I blurt out the words which are embellished with an unknown fear.

"Why would I ever leave the girl I love the most", he questions sounding a bit surprised at my words to which I hug him more tight. "Are you ready for the surprise?" He whispers into my ear. I face him upon releasing our embrace while he keeps smiling. He holds my hand and point towards the Ferris Wheel and both look at it. From our position we can clearly notice every bit of it with nothing coming in between. But... as it starts to rotate I see letters flushing out in form of pink foil balloons one by one ...
Y   O   U   R          R   O   B   O          L   O   V   E   S          Y   O   U

It's  Your Robo Loves You  . No sooner had I seen this than my eyes glitters up with shock and surprise at the same time. Each letter rotating along the ferris wheel while my eyes remain glued at them finally realizing why he was not with him all through the time. Without any doubt I would say this is certainly the most beautiful thing anyone ever did for me. The scenery is more enchanting, more mesmerizing than one can ever imagine. As I turn to face him I see his eyes are already glued on mine to see my reaction. He knows how I'm feeling right now so I don't need to say anything further. After some moment of staring we both turn to look at the Ferris Wheel where letters are rotating. Soon they are released in the air and they go up and up as a flying wheel. This is ethereally embellished which can't be made more elegant, more graceful. Not only us, in fact every single person around us is staring up at the sky to see our epitome of Love. After they are far from our sight I finally notice the faces behind the balloons who have been holding this all all while. They are my friends. So they were also a part of his plan. But I guess this was not the end as now I see each of them bring out two balloons; one pink and one blue in either hands. My favorite color; pink and blue. Certainly Jim gave me the best surprise of my life. Releasing my hand he pulls me by my arm towards him as we see them releasing the round helium infused balloons up in the air. The whole sky now looks like a dream land. The sky looks more of a heaven invading the ever enchanting night, glittered my millions of stars amidst the crimson rays of the moon. This night could not have been more better than this! Balloons are indeed my favorite thing and Jim didn't leave any stone unturned to make things my way. 

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