Ready For It?

Chapter 1

Chapter 1

I have never been in love. Or maybe I have, but it was with my family and with God. Sa mga kaibigan? Siguro. But the romantic one? Never.

In my fourteen years of existence, I have never been in a relationship. NBSB kumbaga. It's not a big deal to me, but it's a big deal in the society where I'm in. It's a big deal in this generation.

Kapag katorse ka na at wala ka pang jowa, pakiramdam nila, napaglilipasan ka na ng panahon.

Yung iba, diyes pa lang, may karelasyon na. My classmates had their first relationship as soon as they reached their fifth grade.

I'm not against in that kind of relationship though. I respect my classmates and their opinions. Kaso lang, I think that they are too immature to be in a relationship.

Too young for love. Too fresh for heartbreak.

Pakiramdam ko ay minamadali nila ang lahat. Na para bang wala lang sa kanila ang pagpasok sa isang relasyon. Not knowing that it comes with a big responsibility.

Before you enter a relationship, you should know what is love. You should know how to love. You should love.

And sometimes, they misinterpret love.

Dahil lang kinikilig ka, pakiramdam mo mahal mo na. Dahil lang gusto mo, pakiramdam mo mahal mo na. Dahil lang gusto ka rin, pakiramdam mo mahal ka na. At dahil lang gusto niyo ang isa't-isa, pakiramdam niyo kayo na.

They often rush the things that should be taken slowly.

When they feel that "feeling", they think that it's love. Where in fact it's just a deep infatuation. And when they get hurt, they think that it's heartbreak. Where in fact, it's just a deep disappointment. When they get hurt, they blame love and destiny for doing it to them. Where in fact, it's their choice.

Meanwhile the others? They treat relationship as a form of entertainment. Kapag exciting, mananatili iyan. Kapag boring, mang-iiwan. The reason? They didn't felt the spark. They lost the butterflies in their stomach. They fell out of love.

But how will you fall out of love when you never loved in the first place?

They think that love made all things wrong. Where in fact, love is never wrong. Love comes at the right time, in the right place, with the right person. What makes it wrong is their actions. Their actions that became the reason of their consequences and disappointments.

I came back to reality when someone patted my back.

"Excuse me muna, mukhang may naghahanap sa akin sa labas." Tinuro ng kaklase ko na si Quinn ang bintana kung saan may tao na mukhang naghihintay sa kanya.

It seems like it's his little brother, waiting for his kuya.

"Go ahead," sabi ni Celestine.

Nang umalis na si Quinn, kaming dalawa na lang ni Celestine ang naiwan. Mukhang babalik naman ata kaagad si Quinn.

Thirty minutes na at hindi pa pumapasok ang susunod naming subject teacher kaya pakiramdam namin ay hindi muna ito papasok sa ngayon. Maybe it's something urgent kaya wala siyang naiwan na seatwork.

"So bakit kayo naghiwalay?" Tanong ko kay Celestine para maipagpatuloy ang kwento.

She is our classroom president na kakuwentuhan ko ngayon.

"Napagod daw siya kaya siya nakipaghiwalay," sagot ni Celestine na para bang napakadali lang ang mang-iwan dahil napagod.

Her ex, Bastian, is our classmate. Grade 7 kami noong nagsimula silang pumasok sa isang relasyon. Unfortunately, they split up on the same year. Pero nagkabalikan naman sila noong grade 8 kami.