Speared My Heart

In Love Too Soon?

He drove for a while and stopped at the beach. I got out of the car and stood by the door waiting for him to come over. Joe stood next to me and put his arms around me

"Can you walk in the sand?"

I shrugged "Dunno. I haven't tried since the surgery. I want to though."

"Well, if you can't then I'll carry you"

I laughed "Well that's not very fun"

He took my hand and we started walking towards the water. I didn't want him carrying me so I tried to suck it up and deal with the fact that the uneven surface was hurting to walk on. I started lagging behind and had to stop. He turned around and I half smiled as he walked back. He stood behind me and wrapped his arms around my shoulders as we watched the waves. I sighed and smiled and rested my head on his arm.

Flashback:

Don't you love me Kyla?

I've never been in love before. I don't know what it feels like. Is that the wrong answer?

Laughing, No, it's not wrong. I can't tell you how to feel. If you don't know if you love me or not chances are it's because you don't. That's OK. I understand

Did I hurt your feelings? I'm sorry. I...

Don't apologize Kyla.  You didn't do or say anything wrong.

He leaned in and kissed me. I love you Kyla

He walked away and I turned and watched him leave as I sighed

"Earth to Kyla...."

I shook my head and turned and looked at him

"Sorry Joe. Lost in thought. What's up?"

"What are you thinking about?"

I thought about it for a second and decided that I wasn't going to tell him. I didn't want to make it weird or awkward. I shook my head

"Nothing important."

He kissed my cheek "Liar"

I turned around completely and wrapped my arms around his neck and smiled. He smiled back, leaned in and kissed me. It felt different when Joe kissed me. I never wanted it to end and it would light up everything inside of me. I couldn't stop smiling when I was with him, he gives me butterflies when I see him and my heart skips a beat when he touches me. I never felt this way with Matt or anyone else. There's no way I was in love with him though. It was too soon for that...right? He pulled me closer closing the gap between us as our tongues danced in rhythm. His hand went under my shirt and rested on the small of my back sending a chill up my spine. He smiled, breaking the kiss. My eyes opened and stared into his and I smiled as I pecked his lips

"Lets go"

"Where?"

"Just come with me"

I followed him to the car holding his hand the whole time. I had my hand on the door waiting for him to unlock the car. I turned and looked at him and gave him the "did you plan on opening this?" look. He smirked and stepped forward, backing me against the car and kissed me again. I softly whimpered as he pressed himself against me and then backed away. The car door unlocked and I grumbled in frustration as he walked away to his side of the car. We drove a short distance until he pulled into the garage of a house. I reluctantly got out of the car and followed him inside.

I looked around at my surroundings and turned back to find him standing in front of me. He smiled and pulled me to him.

"You're beautiful Kyla...you know that right?"

My face had to be three different shades of red. I blushed, looked down and shook my head

"No I'm not, but thank you"

He put his hand under my chin and gently raised my head

"Look at me Kyla"

I glanced up

"Yes you are"

I was about to shake my head 'no' when he crashed his lips to mine, pulling me close and closing the gap between us. I tugged at his shirt and he broke away to take it off along with mine. He lead me down the hall to a bedroom and I fumbled with the button on his pants. He laughed a little and helped me out and with one quick motion the rest of my clothes were a heap on the floor. I laid back on the bed and he climbed on top.  A soft moan escaped my lips as he pressed and sucked on my lower neck and slowly entered. Our bodies moved in sync and I dug my nails into his back and arched mine as we finished. He stayed and looked me in the eyes, moved a strand of hair from my face and pecked my lips

"I love you Kyla"

I was stunned for a minute. Not quite sure if I had heard that correctly I stupidly replied

"What?"

"I love you." he smiled

I grinned from ear to ear "I love you too."

I meant it when I said it to him. I know I meant it with Joe. I've said it before, but I don't think I actually meant it. I just said it to say it because I felt like I had to. I didn't feel that way this time.  He rolled over and I cuddled close and laid my head on his chest. He softly stroked my hair and kissed my forehead and then wrapped his arms around me. I smiled and sighed and drifted off to sleep.