Speared My Heart

NXT 5 Months Later

The car ride to the facility was kind of silent. I was incredibly nervous because The Shield was going to be terrorizing NXT this week which means I'd be seeing Joe. I haven't talked to him or seen him since the day of my surgery. He wouldn't return texts or phone calls so I gave up. I've been living with Corey and we started seeing each other again. I didn't know how to feel about all of this. Part of me felt incredibly guilty because it makes what I said doped up in the hospital true, but on the other hand it wouldn't have ended up this way if he had stayed. We pulled up and I saw Colby and Jon by the back of a car. I squeezed my eyes shut and sighed. Corey parked the car and we got out. He took me by the hand and we started walking right towards Jon and Colby. I lagged behind a bit because of the knee brace and stayed kind of hidden behind him. I had to look like hell. My hair had faded and I never bothered to touch up the roots so it looked horrible with the dark blonde showing through.

"There she is!"

I was greeted by Jon and Colby with big smiles and hugs. It was nice to see they were still my friends.

"How's the knee?"

"Ok. I can walk with this brace on, but I'm still rehabbing it. I don't think I'll be back for a while...if at all. We'll see what happens once I get the all clear. Umm...have you....do you know....???"

"He's inside."

I half smiled and nodded. I wasn't entirely sure I wanted to go in there, but I felt like I owed it to him to at least explain myself. I didn't want him to be mad at me, but what else was I supposed to do. A LOT of things went wrong that needed to be fixed. I went inside and wandered around until I found him sitting alone in catering. I took a deep breath and walked over and sat down. He looked over at me and then looked back . Great he wasn't talking to me again. I really wish he'd find out what's going on or talk to me first before making all kinds of assumptions and ignoring and avoiding me. It's so frustrating.

"So you're mad at me again?"

"Not mad"

"Then what's the problem? I tried calling you and texting you for a month before I just gave up. What the hell?"

He shrugged

"So you do know that I was drugged up right? I didn't even remember what I said. Thanks for breaking your promise by the way. That was really fucked up. I woke up completely alone which you promised wouldn't happen.  I'm really tired of you assuming things without talking to me about it first. It's frustrating and annoying. I mean Jesus think about it....did I give you any reason to think that I really felt that way about Corey before that day?"

I got nothing. He just sat there and the silence was pissing me off

"Hello? So you're just going to ignore me? Fine ignore me. But keep in mind that YOU were the one I was spending every day with not Corey. Whatever."

I got up and walked away. I was so pissed. Angry tears streamed down my face as I made my way back to Matt. I wrapped my arms around his waist and buried my face in his chest. He held me tight and sighed

"Didn't go well?"

I shook my head

"Want me to talk to him?"

I shook my head again

"Want me to kick him in the face during our match later?"

I laughed "No."

We sat around in the back with Colby and Jon talking for a while. I didn't have a lot to say and I wasn't in the mood to laugh either. I was so frustrated. Corey put his arm around me and pulled me closer. I laid my head on his shoulder and sighed.

Jon: "Are you two together?"

I looked up at Corey and he looked down at me and half smiled  "No, just friends"

I half smiled and looked down. "So much for that...it was always better that way when all was said and done." Corey got up and went out for his match. I sat there talking to Saraya and Neville when I heard the Shield's music hit. I knew that Corey was supposed to have some big build up to a mini feud with Colby. Saraya and I went to catering and hung out for a while before her match. I missed being in the ring and was really hoping that when all was said and done I'd be able to come back. I mean how many times has Rey Mysterio blown out his knee and come back? I played with my cell phone while I waited for Corey to come back from changing.

"Hey Kyla...can we go somewhere and talk?"

I looked up and he half smiled. I sighed and put my cell phone in my pocket, got up and walked to a quiet part of the building away from everyone. I leaned against the wall waiting for him to say something. We just stood there staring at each other. I certainly wasn't going to start the conversation because I had already said what I needed to say. It was up to him at this point because I was tired of trying. I cared about him and I wanted this to happen and actually work, but I can't do it if he's going to constantly make assumptions and not even talk to me about it first.

"I'm sorry Kyla. I shouldn't shut you out like I have been. I noticed that you and Corey talk a lot and so I asked him about it. I knew that you were loopy that day, but in my mind you wouldn't have said it if you didn't truly feel it. So I figured you wanted Corey there and not me so I left. Ok I was wrong. I know that. I probably should've called you or answered your texts back. I don't make a habit of breaking promises and I'm very sorry that I abandoned you like that. I just don't want you to hate me. I care about you Kyla I wouldn't be saying this if I didn't."

"So what do you want?"

"Forgiveness. A chance to start over...again...please"

"I don't..."

He stepped towards me and grabbed my waist and closed the gap between us. He looked in my eyes and looked down and back again and smiled. He grabbed my face and slowly leaned in and kissed me.