Speared My Heart

Just A Kiss

*giggling*

"Kyla come on stop giggling. This isn't funny."

"I'm sorry...I'm sorry...I'm sorry...I'm just having a hard time with the idea of having to kiss you."

He rolled his eyes and tried again and again I giggled at him. He sighed in frustration

"Ky...come on you're making this more awkward than it needs to be"

I grinned and laughed a little "Jon, I'm sorry I just can't"

"Nothing about this is real OK, but you have to make it look real or no one will buy it. So STOP giggling and just do it. You're thinking about it too much. Just close your eyes and do it...pretend I'm Joe or something, but you have to just do it or else it's not going to be convincing."

I was having the hardest time with this idea. It was 10-15 seconds...that's it...but I couldn't do it. I felt bad. Like I was cheating or something and the fact that Jon is one of my best friends who is more like an older brother than anything made it more difficult. Plus we had an audience...one of whom was my current boyfriend and the look on his face was less than thrilled.  Jon tried again but this time I was looking right at Joe and it made it feel so wrong. I looked back down at Jon who was irritated.

"What's the problem now?"

"I can't kiss you with Joe watching. It feels really wrong."

He stood up and held out his hand "Come with me"

I took his hand and he pulled me up and started leading me out of the locker room and around the hallways in the back. We were really far away from everyone on a completely different side of the building. It was barely lit and you could tell that we weren't supposed to be on this side. He finally stopped and turned to face me.

"Better?"

I just stared at him. I had run out of excuses. I liked having the excuses because it kept me from having to kiss him. Deep down I was afraid of what would happen if I kissed him and liked it.  He leaned in and I took a step back against the wall. He sighed deeply

"Kyyylaaa...come on. This is ridiculous. What is wrong now?"

Jon's POV:

She's so damn shy. It's no wonder Joe was so frustrated with her at first. I was waiting for an answer to my question. She had a million excuses why she couldn't which is why I brought her over here. If I got rid of all the excuses she couldn't avoid it anymore. I didn't see the problem it was a kiss...a meaningless kiss that is part of the story line. I had to find a way to make this more comfortable for her.

"Kyla? What is bothering you about this? What are you afraid of?"

She looked down and shrugged. She was lying. She just didn't want to tell me. I stood and patiently waited for her to decide what she wanted to do. She glanced up at me and I smiled causing her to look back down. I think I figured out the problem....

Kyla's POV:

He was smirking at me and I couldn't figure out why. He acted like he just got the answer to every question he asked me earlier.  He gently lifted my head, caressed my cheek and softly kissed me. I was taken back by it and pulled away. I stared at him for a second and he rested his forehead on mine

"Your eyes are very blue"

He laughed at me and I blushed "Yes they're blue. You just figured that out?"

I shyly nodded and he laughed again

"See...not so bad right?"

"Jon?"

"What?"

"Kiss me again"

A slight smile came on his face as he leaned in and kissed me. He wrapped his arms around my waist and pulled me closer deepening the kiss. My arms wrapped around his neck and I ran my fingers through his hair.  I knew this was going to happen. This fake relationship with Jon was putting tension on my real relationship with Joe and I was finding myself wanting Jon more and more. I think it was just the lack of attention I was getting from Joe that I was suddenly getting from Jon. I loved Joe, but he wasn't able to deal with how close Jon and I had become. It wasn't on purpose. It just happened that way. He broke the kiss and pulled my shirt over my head and went back to kissing me and massaging my tongue with his. He reached down and grabbed my ass and lifted me up. I wrapped my legs around his hips as he trailed kisses down my neck. He suddenly paused when he reached my necklace from Joe

"Kyla...you love Joe right?"

"Yeah"

"Then this has to stop. It isn't right. I've waited a really long time to do this with you, but I can't...not like this...not after seeing the necklace and realizing this wouldn't be a good idea."

He set me down and I bent down to collect my shirt. I tried to not look disappointed or upset with myself. He was right. I love Joe and I know that he loves me. I got dressed and looked down.

"I'm sorry Jon. I should've been...smarter I guess. I hope this doesn't make things weird"

"It won't.  Lets get back so we can film our segment. I won't tell if you wont....deal?"

I nodded

"Kyla..you know he is head over heels in love with you right? He talks about you all of the time. I know that our "relationship" has made things feel strained, but I'm telling you the way he feels about you has never changed. He loves you more than I think you even realize."

He wiped the tears from my cheeks and kissed my forehead.

"Come on...you have a diva's title to win. We don't have time for tears"