Speared My Heart

Fix It

Wrestlemania was tomorrow. It'd been 2 days since that day in the lobby and I've been a mess. I go out and do Fan Axxcess stuff and promotional stuff, but that's it. All I can think about is Kyla and how much I've hurt her. I miss her so much. I love her. I always have and I didn't know what to do without her.

Kyla's POV:

"Ky...you need to eat something. Lets go down and get some lunch...just me and you...no tricks I promise."

I looked up from the pillow and then back down and stared at the wall. Corey sat down next to me on the edge of the bed and tucked my hair behind my ear and sighed. I didn't feel like doing anything. I just wanted to be left alone. I couldn't get what happened at the gala out of my head. I felt so betrayed by everyone I knew. I only trusted Corey and that was on a minimal basis at this point. He rubbed my back and smiled at me. He was at least trying to care.

"Kyla you can't lay here forever. I know you're hurting right now, but I really think you should get up and at least try to face the day."

"No" I mumbled "If you're hungry go eat. I'm not in the mood"

"I haven't seen you eat in days Kyla please. I'm so worried about you. I've never ever seen you this sad and depressed."

"You didn't just have everyone you care about shit on you and betray you. Hell in the end I don't even know if you knew about it too."

"How can you say that to me Kyla? Huh? I'm the only one who has been here for you the entire time. I've been there through all of it and you think I'm in on the betrayal and lies? I love you Kyla. I would never hurt you and do this to you. I know you don't love me and that's fine but I would never ever do something like that to you. In the end I'm pretty much the only one you can trust."

I felt the tears pooling up in the corner of my eye waiting to fall off the edge of my nose onto the pillow. I was so lost and confused. So sad and broken. In the end it shouldn't matter. It was just like everything else in my life...a big never ending disappointment. I shouldn't even be sad. I shouldn't even care. Something like this would never have bothered me before. A soft cry escaped my lips and Corey grabbed my arm and pulled me up to his chest and held me

"I wish I could make this better for you Kyla"

"What did I do wrong? Why?"

"I don't know Kyla. You didn't do anything wrong. I just don't have any answers for you...I'm sorry"

Joe's POV:

I couldn't think straight. My mind was off in a hundred different directions. I keep thinking about the look in look in Kyla's eyes and it breaks my heart. The sliding glass door opened and I turned to see who it was

"I hate saying this because I hate your guts right now, but I need you"

"You need me?"

"Yes. Just come with me please"

I followed him to the elevator and then down the hall. He stopped outside the door

"What is this about?"

"You're the only one who can fix it."

"Fix what?"

"What you broke"

He opened the door and Kyla was curled in a ball on the bed by the wall

"She hasn't moved in two days. I can't get her to do anything. I've never seen her like this. I tried, but I can't...it has to be you"

I walked in and stopped half way. I turned around and saw that Corey had left so I walked over and sat next to her on the edge of the bed. She was sleeping and I didn't want to bother her so I got up and sat on the love seat on the other side of the room. I was really nervous about how this was going to go. I knew she was really upset and hurt and I just didn't want her to feel like she was trapped or tricked. I heard soft crying from across the room so I got up and sat next to her again and softly stroked her hair. She looked over at me and pushed my hand away

"Go away"

"Kyla...please."

She sat up and pushed me hard in the chest "Leave me alone."

"Kyla...stop. Listen. We need to talk about what happened...."

"NO"

She pushed me again and I grabbed her wrists  to stop her. She dropped her head and cried.

"Kyla I'm sorry. I'm so sorry that I hurt you. I know you don't believe me or trust me, but I mean it."

She tried to pull away, but I wouldn't let go.

"Why?  What did I do?  Why did you do this to me?"

"You didn't do anything Kyla. I can't give you an answer because I don't even know the answer. I don't have a reason.  I know I ruined everything. I know this is my fault."

"Wasn't I enough? What's wrong with me that made you do this??"

"There's nothing wrong with you. You've always been enough. I can't give you an answer Kyla...I don't know why...it just happened. I realize that is a horrible thing to say, but it's the truth"

"But I loved you. You're the only one I've ever loved. Don't you love me?"

"I've always loved you Kyla. I still love you...I wouldn't be here right now if I didn't."

Kyla's POV:

He let go of my wrists and I sat back and pulled my knees to my chest. I hadn't seen this side of him in weeks. I didn't trust him. I couldn't trust him. He was like this during the gala and it was a lie. I didn't know what to believe, think or feel about all of this. He reached out and cupped my face in his hands and wiped the tears from my cheeks with his thumbs. He leaned in an softly kissed me. I looked up at him and weakly smiled and threw myself into his arms. I just wanted him to hold me. He wrapped his arms around me and hugged me. I closed my eyes and took it all in

"I love you"  I softly whispered

I didn't know if he heard me or not, but it didn't matter. I needed to get that out. He pulled me back and smiled. I missed his smile and his hugs. He had barely touched me for weeks.

"Kyla...I'm so sorry. You don't have to forgive me or take me back, but I love you and I'm so very sorry. I don't ever want to hurt you like that again"