Speared My Heart

Taking Things For Granted

Jon's POV:

I ran my fingers through my hair and paced in the waiting area. Colby looked up from his seat and sighed in annoyance at me. I couldn't figure out where Joe was. He's had plenty of time to get here. She's his girlfriend. I know he's busy but Jesus

"Didn't you tell him this was an emergency??"

"Yes, Jon I told him. He knows. I don't know where he is. Please stop pacing...it's stressing me out."

"Kyla is his girlfriend not mine...it's his job to be here for her. Shit like phone interviews can wait. This isn't exactly like she fell and bruised something."

I had to pace. If I sat down it made me think about how much I failed her. I love Kyla and would do anything for her. Nothing anyone says is going to make me feel better about this at all

"Jon...what is really going on? Why are you beating yourself up so much about this?"

"Because I was supposed to protect...."

"Yeah I get that, but there's more to it. I can tell there's more to it. You're in love with her aren't you? Jon...you know how Joe feels about her."

"I know. I know. I know."

Doctor: "Kyla Andrew's family."

We looked and went over. She had no family except for us and Joe wasn't here so we had to step in. I was begging for some good news. I missed the first half of the conversation thinking about other things

"The blunt force trauma when she hit her head caused a partial tear of the retina in one eye and almost a complete tear in the other. We're going to try to repair it, but the damage may be permanent."

"So she's blind. No matter what...even if you fix it there's no guarantee she'll ever see again. Is that what you're saying?"

"Essentially yes. We have to wait and see what happens after the surgery. She may regain SOME of her sight...enough to be blurry or maybe see shadows, but otherwise this is permanent."

I politely knocked on the door and went inside. She quickly wiped the tears from her cheeks as I walked over and stood next to her

"Joe?"

"No, Ky it's me.  Can I sit with you for a minute?"

She nodded and scooted over a little. I sat down next to her and took her hand. We sat in silence for a second

"What are you thinking about that made you cry?"

"Well, I'm blind so lets start there. But mainly I'm just thinking about how you take all kinds of things for granted...like being able to see...and how I wish I hadn't. Like I'll never be able to go outside in the middle of spring and see how perfectly bright blue the cloudless sky is. Or admire my Christmas tree or watch the leaves change in the fall. Or feel the rush of stepping out on the ramp and seeing the crowd react to you. But you know what I'll miss the most about being able to see?"

"What?"  I whispered choking back tears

"Being able to see you guys every day. I'll never get to see you guys smile or laugh or make funny faces at me when I try to be serious. I'm going to miss seeing you and knowing exactly how to react. Now I have to guess. I'll never know if you're mad, sad, happy, hurt. I can't run up and jump on your back or in your arms and I can't randomly kiss you on the cheek whenever I want. I'm glad that I finally figured out that your eyes are blue"

She grinned and I laughed a little. I leaned in and softly kissed her "I love you Kyla"

She shrugged "I know. I've always known. I love Joe though. I'm sorry...did I hurt your feelings?"

"No. I know you love him Kyla and I know how much he loves you. I would never stand in the way of that."

Joe's POV:

I finally arrived at the hospital. I was so angry at Jon for not doing what I asked. I was worried about her and I didn't know how bad it was or what even really happened. I had spent almost all day doing promotional stuff and interviews and all I wanted to do was come here and be with Kyla. I made my way upstairs and rushed down a hallway and saw Colby

"Where is she?"

"Down the hall"

I started to leave

"Joe. Wait."

"What?"

"Do me a favor please. Go easy on Jon OK. He's really shaken up and upset about all of this. He feels really bad and he blames himself. I don't think it's going to do anyone any good to fight or be mad at each other right now."

"How bad is it?"

"She's blind. They're going to try to repair the damage, and she might regain the ability to see shadows but she's blind...permanently"

"......how?...."

"She hit her head on a table because she botched a maneuver off of a ladder. Jon tried to tell her over and over to stop, but she was persistent."

I made my way down the hall to her room. I quietly opened the door and walked in and stood there for a second listening to their conversation

"....I'd never stand in the way of that"

"Do you think Joe will still want me even though I can't see anymore?"

I walked in the rest of the way "Kyla that is the silliest thing you've ever asked"

She grinned and Jon got up and walked out of the room. She held out her arms wanting a hug so I went over and sat next to her and pulled her to me.  I held her tight and softly stroked her hair. Her arms wrapped around me and she laid her head on my chest and sighed.

"I love you Kyla. I'm glad you're OK. I'm so sorry I wasn't there."

"I love you too.  Don't be sorry. It's fine. I'm the one who should be sorry. I didn't listen to Jon when he told me not to do the move anymore."

I pulled her back and gently lifted her head and kissed her.

"I don't want to be alone when I 'wake' up. Please. Not like last time."

"I may not be here Kyla. Jon and I both have a match at the pay per view. I might be able to get Colby to stay with you until I can make it back here for you. Do you think that'll be OK?"

She nodded. The door opened. I turned to see who it was and she noticed I was moving away and she threw herself against me. I'm sure not being able to see makes what is normally nerve wracking a thousand times worse. And what I'm finding annoying is the fact that they're not saying anything so it just makes it scary for her.

"What's going on?"

"I think it's time Kyla. I promise if I'm not here when you wake up that someone WILL be here. I'll come as soon as I can after the pay per view OK.  You have to let me go and lay back. I love you. I love you very much Kyla."

I took her hands from around my waist and kissed them as she laid back. I looked over at the nurses

"She can't see"

"We know that"

"So if you know then do me a favor and at least say something to her when you come in. This is scary for someone who can see so imagine taking the sight away."