Speared My Heart

Darkness

"She should be fine. The concussion is mild. She'll need to sleep it off. Just keep an eye on her. Let her sleep as much as she wants, but wake her every couple hours and ask random questions like the date or her birthday."

"This isn't going to affect her vision is it?"

"Well, she might experience blurred or fuzzy vision just from the concussion. That usually goes away. If there's any change or something that isn't normal happens just bring her back and we'll look at it."

I kept hearing voices. One was Jon. The other I didn't recognize. I was trying to wake up but my head felt heavy and it hurt. Everything was dark. I felt that I was being carried, but I didn't know by who or where they were taking me...their faces were black...it was so dark. There was no light...no shadows...no shapes or figures....just black. Empty and cold. I heard another familiar voice talking to Jon...it was Colby...why can't I see him?  Why can't I see Jon?

"I'll drive you guys home. We can pick up your car tomorrow if she's feeling better"

If she's feeling better? Am I sick? What's wrong with me? Strong arms wrapped around me holding me close and stroking my hair. I knew it was Jon and I smiled...at least I think I did. He whispered softly

"I'm so sorry Ky. I love you so much. I never meant to hurt you."

Hurt me? What happened? I tried to speak but nothing came out. What the hell is wrong with me? I felt that I was being carried again and set down on the bed at home. I kept looking around, but saw nothing. Why can't I see???  Jon helped me change into pajamas. Soon I was safe, wrapped in his arms listening to the soft beat of his heart and I fell asleep. I woke up...at least I think I did...it was still black and cold. I was alone and I got out of bed and started counting steps to the door. Why am I counting again? I haven't had to count my steps in a long time. I made it to the door and ran my hand along the wall

"You're awake. I'm so glad to see you Kyla. I've missed you so much. I'm so glad you came back"

I did what? Suddenly there were hands on my shoulders and they slid down my arms to my hands. This wasn't Jon....it was Joe. Why is he here? I wasn't home....I was at Joe's house. How did I get here? Why am I here?

"Where's Jon?"  I was finally able to speak

"Jon left you. He knew deep down you wanted me so he walked away. I'm so glad you decided to stay. I love you so much Kyla"

He wrapped his arms around my waist and kissed me. I felt cold and like this wasn't real.

"NO...NO...THIS IS A LIE!!! I DON'T LOVE YOU...I DON'T LOVE YOU. I LOVE JON!!! I WANT JON!!! DON'T TOUCH ME!!!"

I screamed, I pushed, I hit...I tried to get away, but I fell. I couldn't see...why can't I see???

"Kyla...it's Jon's fault you can't see. He hurt you. He took your sight away. He never loved you Kyla. He just used you and when he was done he hurt you"

"LIAR!!"

"I'm not lying to you Kyla"

"YOU'RE A LIAR. I HATE YOU!!!"

"He's not lying Ky..."

"Jon?"

He grabbed me and picked me up and I felt like I was being thrown and I was falling...I kept falling. I screamed

Jon's POV:

I was up all night holding her in my arms and making sure to wake her every couple hours. I had mistakenly fallen asleep. I don't know for how long, but her scream caused me to jolt awake. I reached for her, but she was still asleep and she was fighting me. I grabbed her and pulled her to me and held her

"Kyla...wake up. Kyla stop fighting me. Wake up."

Her eyes flew open. She was shaking and crying. I rocked her in my arms and gently stroked her hair

"Shhh it's alright Kyla. It was just a dream. I'm here."

"P......p....please don't leave"

"I won't. It's OK. Just try to relax. I won't let anything happen to you."

She finally started to calm down and relax a little and wrapped her arms around me and laid her head on my shoulder. I kissed her forehead and hugged her.

"I love you Kyla"

"I love you too Jon. Can you please hold me like this forever?"

I laughed a little "I can't promise forever Ky. I mean I do have to pay bills, eat, go to the bathroom and work. BUT I can hold you like this for as long as you'd like"

"I was so scared"

"I noticed. Want to talk about it?"

"I kept hearing you and Colby and I think it was a doctor talking, but I couldn't see. Everything was black. I was trying to talk, but couldn't. You kept apologizing for hurting me and then I fell asleep and woke up but I wasn't home I was with Joe and he kissed me and told me he loved me and that you never did and that you used me. That I was blind because of you and you hurt me on purpose because you were tired of me. And I kept calling him a liar and then you stood up and said he wasn't lying and then you grabbed me and threw me"

"It was just a dream Kyla. I would NEVER hurt you on purpose like that. I felt so bad about last night Kyla. I didn't mean to push you that hard. I didn't mean for any of it to happen. He just...he just made me so mad. He took advantage of you and was taunting me all night long. When he put on that key...that stupid fucking key necklace and smirked at me I lost it. I'm so sorry Ky.  So very very sorry"

"Jon?"

"Hmm"

"Can we get married today?"

"Today?"

I pulled her back and looked at her shocked. She was serious. The look in her eyes and the way she said it so emphatically...I knew she meant it.

"Kyla...don't you want to have a big thing with the dress and the flowers and the cake and the dancing? You can't tell me that you pictured getting married in a courthouse or a roadside chapel on the strip."

"I don't care about all of that. It's just stuff and it's not important to me. The only thing that matters to me is that we're together and happy. We could get married by a judge, a county clerk, Elvis, a justice of the peace...whatever....as long as I'm with you that's all that matters to me. Please"

"Kyla...I'm just afraid that a year from now you're going to look back and wish you had done it all huge and full of all of that 'stuff'"

She shook her head "Nope."

"We don't have anything we need...rings....clothes....I  think maybe another day when we have more time to prepare."

She shook her head again "Please Jon. I just want to do this for us. Because we both love each other and it's foolish to wait just because you think I want all of the pomp and circumstance that goes with it."

"Alright. Fine we can do it today. But first I want you to get some rest."

She excitedly wrapped her arms around my neck and kissed my cheek. I pulled her back and kissed her. She smiled and nestled her head on my shoulder to get more comfortable. I piled some pillows behind me and laid back. I was exhausted from being up all night. I wrapped my arms around her and we fell asleep.