A Willowed Rose

When I'm gone

I hope no one sheds a tear
Instead laugh and rejoice at all my triumphs and fears
When I'm gone
I hope those that never cared
Call and tell their darkest of why they were never there
When I'm gone
I hope my story will be told
Hope someone takes it
And know that they'll grow
Hope every depressed person
Person with bipolar
Stress
And anxiety
Know they weren't
struggling alone
That I to
Was battling demons
Of my own
I to cried every night
And felt alone
No matter how many "i love you's"
And "i care"
I had nobody to call home
Thinking "why don't I just blow off my dome"
Yes I to have had nights
Where it was silent
Not a sound
But my heart
shattering and falling apart
Not a sound but my thoughts
Piercing through the dark
Not a warm hand
Or a warm heart
When I'm gone
I want people that think they can't make it
That it's to hard
To know I'm there with you
No matter where you are
No matter how far
When I'm gone I want a letter to be read
To every family friend or person that wished I was dead
A letter reading
All my struggles
All my pain
Fears
And give ups
I want those that thought they knew me to KNOW me
Not the masked me
The vulnerable me
The broken scared
"Caged animal" me
The beautiful mess that I was
And will forever be
When I'm gone I want my first love to know I wish he was my last and even after all this time has passed
My love for you still lasts
I want my children to know
That we are one with our souls
And as you grow old
Know I'll hold you close
And in your time of need
Call upon me
And when one is weak
Remember me
For I will
And for I always will
Love you
When I'm gone
For all my family and friends
Know that I tried to be strong
That I was strong
And forever will be
~fin~