Little by Little (Kylo Ren x Reader)

chapter 15 🌒

since your intimate moment with kylo in his private library, he has been very distant. anytime he would see you in the halls, he would duck the other way, even dodging you by entering random rooms till you passed by. he would ignore you as if you were dust in the air; as if you were nonexistent.

this time though, you had enough of his attitude. kylo was in the meeting room; in the middle of a private conference when you suddenly barged in; making kylo's anger skyrocket.

"leave" you assert; making the men stand up quickly, scrambling around you. you make eye contact with kylo; anger surging between your gaze.

"no, they must stay" kylo challenged you, the men looking between you both; unsure what orders to follow.

you straighten your back and stare at kylo "fine, why haven't you spoke to me since you-" your words were cut off as kylo gripped your arm and yanks you into the hallway.

you were slammed into the wall as the door shut behind you; kylo's breath fanning your face. "we will not speak of that; what's done is done" kylo grits his teeth, takes one last look at you before turning his body away, pulling on the door handle.

your irritation for him grows, making you reach up and grab the collar of his tunic, pulling him back to you "that doesn't give you the right to ignore me" your voice was stern as kylo looks down at you, his eyes darting to your lips. your anger wilting away; sadness replacing it.

kylo huffs and tightens his hands into fists at his sides in frustration; an inner battle going on inside his mind. "you make me feel...you make me feel, " he says to you fiercely, "and i don't like it. i want it to stop. now." you look at kylo as he brings his eyebrows together in anger.

you look at him till he brings his eyes to yours momentarily before adverting his gaze to anything but you. your eyes widen; your heart beat skips in your chest, causing you to take a deep breath in. here you were; kylo ren standing in front of you fuming for admitting he feels something for you.

you reach your hand up to his cheek, tangling your fingertips into his hair as kylo closes his eyes for a moment; absentmindedly pushing his cheek into your hand more before moving his gaze to you.
"you're scared of the way i make you feel, because you don't want to feel anything" you say softly, interrupting the silence that lingered between you.

kylo confirms your suspicions by tearing his eyes from you. you drop your hand to your side, feeling the mental push from kylo as the emotions on his face melted away; leaving you with pain being painted on your features. just as you were about to speak, general hux appears next to you; making kylo take two steps away from you.

"emperor and empress ren, we request your presence in the meeting room, it is very important you both attend" hux nods to you before turning and walking back in the direction he came.

you steal one last glance at kylo before stepping around him and following hux to the meeting room. you feel kylo's presence behind you as you keep your eyes straight in front of you; following the fiery red hair that bounced around as hux took large steps.

entering the meeting room, you are surprised to see most of the allied planets and their generals present, making your nerves rise. kylo takes his seat as you follow suit. once you are seated; the generals take theirs, ready for the meeting to begin.

"one of our allied planets by the name of novo is planning an attack on the first order by nightfall on their ground. we have acquired this information by the whistleblower of novo; they plan on taking out our armies and high ranking generals, saving emperor and empress ren for last. they believe the first order has lied about what happened on eclipse; and that we have given phony information on the future of the first order and our intentions for our alliances" hux informs everyone in the room of why we were called here today, you shift uncomfortably in your seat at the mention of your planet; making your eyes sting, tears threatening to spill.