Little by Little (Kylo Ren x Reader)

chapter 16 🌓

(this is a big turning point chapter! we hope you love it! -k&m)

- kylo -

after the events that occurred yesterday on novo; kylo had been extremely cautious around you. seeing your eyes fade away into the grey fog of the dark side made be weary of bringing you on another mission for the sake of losing you completely.

you had been still sleeping when kylo left his quarters, the couch he had been on being far too uncomfortable to get a good nights sleep. it was early morning on the finalizer; only a few officers scattered the hallways as they started their long tiring day.

kylo walked with his helmet sung on his head as they nodded in his direction; kylo never once looked at them as he moved throughout the halls. once he reached his destination, he opened the door slowly. alice sat in her chair next to the window; her long grey hair pulled into a tight bun behind her head.

"emperor ren, to what do i owe the pleasure?" alice stays locked on her working hands, her glasses on the top of her nose.

"alice, can...can i confide in you?" kylo asks, sitting across from her. he takes off his helmet; sitting it on the ground next to his feet, he felt out of place asking for help from alice. he had never asked for help in his lifetime.

alice stops moving her fingers, sitting her needle and fabric on her lap as she looks up from her work; pulling her glasses off her nose and to the top of her head.

kylo dropped his head, his shoulders shrugging lightly as his mind and heart worked against each other. his mind told him to leave, never ask for help again and figure it out on his own. but his heart told him he needed to find out what he could do to get to know you, not your title or the girl from eclipse who was sheltered and locked away for all her younger years.

"of course, emperor ren" alice says, looking at kylo intently "is it about the empress?" she studies him carefully.

kylo blows heavy air out of his nostrils. alice already knew what was going on, all by just looking at him. kylo straightens his back, leaning into the chair and looks directly at alice; her caring eyes looking into his.

"the dark in her, it will take her over one day; i know it. it needs to stop. i will lose my empress if this continues" kylo's voice is deep and holds a worried accent, making alice smile.

"sometimes the two people who are truly best for each other will have to face greater obstacles in order to be together, emperor ren" alice looks out the window for a moment, pondering over her next words. "you must find her before you can stop something that is already started"

kylo closes his eyes momentarily, controlling his breathing "then what do i do, alice? i cannot leave my position on the finalizer; i am the supreme leader and the emperor of the first order. i have much better things to attend to" kylo's voice raises as he stands from his chair; looking down at the old woman in front of him.

alice never once flinches at his outburst; only shaking her head lightly, as if she found her answer. "i wonder which will get your killed faster- your loyalty or your stubbornness?" alice looks at kylo deep within his eyes, seeing a man of such power, breaking under her stare.

kylo takes a step back from her, no one has spoken to him like this except for you, when you called him a "little boy in a mask". kylo takes a deep breath, his heart telling him to listen to what alice has to say but his mind going in a much darker position.

he resumes his seat in front of alice, folding his arms over his chest; looking at her with fuming eyes.

"you need to take her away from here; away from the first order. she will never show you the true her unless she is on neutral ground; no alliances, no title, no responsibilities. just you and her" alice has picked up her sewing needles, beginning her work once more.