Little by Little (Kylo Ren x Reader)

chapter 30 🌔

(welcome back to k&m's shit show. we hope you enjoy)

kylo was at the side of your bed for hours after leaving the interrogation room where kael is, his bloody hand stayed covered by his glove as he sat listening to the sound of your breath coming in and out of your nose. he watched how your closed eyelashes would flutter and how you'd groan a bit everytime you'd try to get comfortable.

your cold free hand was held tightly in kylo's- your fingers jumping from time to time as you dreamed in your sleep. kylo smiled, even with tubes and bandages surrounding your frail body, you still looked breathtaking to him.

suddenly a knock sounded on the door, making kylo slowly sit back in his seat; dropping your hand gently to the mattress below you. as the door opened, kylo turned his head to the side, watching as one of the knights opened the door widely; nodding to kylo and allowing a tall red haired man to enter.

"supreme leader" hux says, looking directly at kylo.

"general hux" kylo's voice holds no emotion; giving off the impression that he is unbothered with the situation.

"supreme leader, you have an empire to run" hux looks at kylo with extreme annoyance, making kylo grip the arms of the chair more.

"my wife is in critical condition; the empire can wait" kylo grits his teeth- keeping his gaze on you in order to stay remotely calm.

hux snorts as he rolls his eyes "i don't think that's how this works"

kylo snaps his head at hux; his long hair flopping around his face "i rule this empire, so yes, that is how this works" using his ungloved hand, he waves hux off, making him huff and mumble to himself as he exits the room.

kylo runs his hands through is hair in frustration; he does in fact have an empire to run, but watching you lay here, he couldn't help but wonder how long you had been in pain before he found you- how long you had been screaming before you were able to bridge a weak connection to him.

kylo stares off into space as he relives those painful moments; you reaching out for him while blood poured from your lips, the way you clung to life even though every odd was stacked against you. the thing that pounded on his guilty conscience the most was the fact that even though you were in immense pain, the first thing you did when you saw him after surgery was smile; kylo knew he didn't deserve you- he knew that all too well, he just wished he hadn't taken so long to figure out how much he did in fact love you.

the moment the doctor revealed you would be fine, kylo's heart swelled- but as he stood against the door, taking in your appearance of dried blood and dripping liquids into your veins, the doctors next words blew all of the air from kylo's chest

"she's with child"

kylo blinked twice; processing the words before his brain could actually catch up. he looked between you and the doctor; his breathing picking up slightly. anger overtook him; not because of the news, but because of the fact that he not only put you in danger, but his unborn child as well.

"when she wakes up, i can deliver the news, sir" doctor ace asked softly, watching as kylo's brows were brought together

"no, i-i'll tell her" kylo managed to choke out before he took the seat next to you.

doctor ace took that as he cue to leave, shutting the door quietly behind him. kylo put his head in his hands, a million questions flying through his mind before his eyes stayed trained on your stomach; watching as you in took slow deep breaths.

kylo lifted his hand and pressed it down on your stomach softly, feeling his hand move up and down with each intake of air. he closed his eyes and focused his energy on you; listening to his inner voice telling him to try and connect to the child.