I would die for you, but I won't live for you -Niall Horan au

nineteen

(A/N) here's a longer one :)

It had been a week and Niall still wouldn’t talk to me. I had gotten a quick few glances from him but that was it. I guess it was better than nothing. He spent most of his time with Liam, Lou, Ri, and Zayn and he wouldn’t go anywhere near Harry or I.

Today we all wanted to go shopping. We decided to split up since we all wanted to go to different stores. Harry and Riley ended up going together since the stores they wanted were right near each other. You could tell they weren’t happy about it, but they went anyways.

Liam and Louis wanted to go look at some new hair products, which was weird. It wasn’t like them at all. So those two and Zayn all walked off. Then there was Niall and I. “Where do you want to go?” I asked. He looked around the mall and pointed to a store.

“Can we go to the music store?” he asked. I nodded and followed him. Once we got to the store, I followed him through the rows of CD’s. He stopped in front of a section and smiled at the row in front of him. I had no idea what he was looking at until I took a closer look.

It was a One Direction CD. It was theirs.

“I like to come and find our CD and just think about how far we’ve come. I’d always dreamt of this but I never thought it would actually happen.” He explained. Niall kept looking at it and smiling until I reached out and grabbed it. I started walking to the cash and once I got in line, I turned to see Niall looking at me funny before following me.

“What are you doing?” he asked. It was my turn to pay so I pulled out my wallet. “I can’t have best friends that are in a band and not buy their CD.” I replied. I turned to the girl working the cash to find her looking at Niall with wide eyes. “Oh, my, God.” She whispered.

Well, she was obviously a fan “Uh, hi.” Niall mumbled. I could tell the girl was ready to burst. And when she did, I couldn’t help but cover my ears. “You’re Niall Horan!” she screamed. I guess some girls who were walking by heard her because about five of them ran into the store towards Niall.

They immediately started asking for autographs and pictures with him. I even offered to take some of the photos. After they were finished, one girl turned to me and looked me over. “Are you Niall’s girlfriend?” She asked. I wasn’t sure if she was trying to be mean or it just came out that way but she sounded like a total bitch.

She was wearing a skirt that was way to short, a shirt that showed her obvious pushup bra, and she had makeup covering her face. “No.” I smiled, trying to be nice. “Good.” The girl sneered and turned back to Niall. He just looked at me with wide eyes and shook his head.

I wasn’t sure what I was expecting the girl to do, but when she kissed him I was shocked. He didn’t pull away or push her off of him either. Which also shocked me. I turned back to the girl at the cash and she gave me a sympathetic smile.

I paid for the CD and walked out of the store. It really hurt seeing another girl kiss him. I know we weren’t together and I know I deserved it, but it still hurt. Word of Niall must have gotten out cause as I walked away from the store, groups of girls ran passed my yelling his name. I just kept walking though. I didn’t want to be in the middle of all that.

Ahead of me, I saw a blonde girl storm out of a store with a curly haired boy following behind her. “Come on Riley, you know I didn’t mean it like that!” Harry called after her. He finally caught up and grabbed her wrist, making her face him. She didn’t look pissed off at him like she usually did, she looked hurt.

“Really Harry? ‘Oh you won’t ever fit into that!’ how am I supposed to take it?” She said. They stood there looking at each other. Nobody said anything and Harry sure as hell didn’t explain himself.

“Is that Harry Styles!?”

I looked behind me and saw a group of girls watching the two. It was the same group from the music store. I looked over at the blonde girl who was smirking at me. “Oh my god it is!” One girl squealed. That’s when I started running. Harry looked over at me confused when I got to them and pulley Riley away from him and out of the way of the crazy fans.

Before he knew it, he was being surrounded by a group of girls. I pulled Riley into the closest store. “What… was… that… about…?” I asked, trying to catch my breath. Riley shrugged and looked through the rows of necklaces that were in front of her. “I saw what happened.”

She looked away from the necklace she was holding and down at the ground. “I was looking at a shirt and Harry told me I’d never fit into it.” Riley explained with another shrug. “He said he didn’t mean it like that but you never know with him you know?”

She went back to looking at the necklace. It was cute. It was a silver chain with a very detailed silver bird on it. I could tell she really liked it. She grabbed her wallet out of her bag and went through some money, counting it. She then checked the price tag and sighed while putting it back.

“I need to go to the bathroom.” She said, walking away. I nodded and watched her leave the store. I picked up the necklace and looked at the price tag. Wow thirty dollars for a necklace? Riley never liked to carry around that much money, so it’s no wonder she couldn’t buy it.

“Payton!” I turned to see Harry run into the store. “Where Riley? I have to explain I have to-”

“Apologize?” I cut off and he nodded. He looked around the store, searching for Riley. “She’s not here.” I told him. He sighed and scratched the back of his neck. I grabbed my wallet and pulled out thirty-five dollars to pay for the necklace. “Who’s that for?” Harry asked. “Riley didn’t have enough money so I’m buying it for her.” I explained. Before I could react, Harry grabbed the necklace and went to pay for it before running out of the store.

“Great. Alone again.” I mumbled. I looked around the store a little before deciding to leave. As soon as I walked out of the store, I heard my name being called. I turned in the direction of the voice to see Niall jogging towards me. “Where did you go?” He asked once he reached me.

I shrugged and started walking. “There was drama with Riley and Harry again.” I told him. Niall sighed and shook his head. “What are we going to do with those two?” He said. I shrugged again and walked into Starbucks. I got in line and ordered myself a hot chocolate.

While Niall was waiting for his order, I went and found a seat. It wasn’t long before he joined me. “They would make a cute couple.” Niall stated. “Who?” I asked, bringing my hot chocolate up to my lips and taking a sip.

“Riley and Harry.”

I swear I almost choked. I could not stop coughing and I could feel the hot chocolate coming out of my nose, which caused Niall to laugh. “Are you okay?” He asked, still laughing. I nodded and grabbed a napkin.

This was so embarrassing! Here I was, sitting in Starbucks with the guy I was in love with, and I had hot chocolate coming out of my nose. Real classy Payton. Once Niall had calmed down, we continued our conversation.

“They would not make a cute couple. Riley would rip his head off!” I explained. Niall started shaking his head right away. “If you really pay attention to them, you’ll notice they have a lot in common.”

He was right. They were pretty similar in some ways. Just like Niall and I were but I guess he never paid attention to that. But I guess us being so similar is what made me fall in love with him in the first place.

“So, you’re not mad at me?” I blurted. Niall just looked at me for a moment before answering. “Nah. I talked to Harry. He explained everything.” Everything? He wouldn’t have told Niall that I was in love with him would he? “He told you everything?”

“Yeah. He said that you were both upset about your break ups so it was a rebound thing.” Niall explained. “Why were you mad at me then?” I had to know. I needed to know that he loved me too. Or, at least liked me.

“Well, I thought you liked Harry and I got upset.” He started. I could feel the big grin on my face. Maybe he did like me after all. “I got upset because,” He took a deep breath and looked me in the eyes.

This was it.