I would die for you, but I won't live for you -Niall Horan au

thirty-nine

“I don’t.” I replied sternly.

Yeah, I know I was lying, but I had to be strong. I couldn’t give into him so easily. I couldn’t be weak.

“I know you’re lying Payton. I know how you feel about me, and you know I feel the same. I don’t want to lose you again. You mean too much to me to let go of. I know that we’re perfect for each other and I want to be able to tell you how I feel every single day. I know you don’t like me much right now, but I hope we can get past this and finally be together one day. I want to be able to make you as happy as you’ve made me.

I didn’t notice he was walking closer to me until we were less than a foot apart. I also hadn’t noticed I was crying until Niall reached out and wiped a tear from my eye. “I’m sorry for slapping you.” I said. Niall laughed and leaned his forehead against mine. “Do you forgive me?” He whispered. I looked into his beautiful blue eyes and all I could see was sadness, hope, truth and most importantly, love. There was so much love in his eyes that I knew he meant every single word of what he just said. “Yes.” I whispered back. “I forgive you.”

Niall smiled, wrapped his arms around my waist and kissed me. It was so passionate that anybody who looked at us right now could easily tell that we were in love. We pulled away and looked into each other’s eyes. “I love you.” It was the first time he had actually told me.  I smiled and reached up to wipe away a small tear from his eye. “I love you too.” I said, before kissing him again. We heard the door slam open, followed by some shouting and pulled apart. “What’s going on?” Niall asked. I shrugged and walked around the corner to see Riley storm into the kitchen with Harry hot on her heels. Her cousin slowly walked in and looked around.

Awkward…

“You’re such an idiot Harry!” Riley yelled. I walked over to the entry was and watched the two. “I thought you were leaving forever! You can’t blame me for coming after you!” Harry yelled back. “Well you didn’t have to run through the God damn airport yelling my name!” Riley crossed her arms. Harry laughed and shook his head. “Oh come on Ri, you know it was romantic.” He smirked. Riley narrowed her eyes at him. When Harry reached out to her, she was quick to slap his hands away. “What’s going on?” I finally asked.

Riley looked over at Niall and I and opened her mouth to speak but nothing came out as she took us in.

He was standing behind me with his arms wrapped around my waist and his chin resting on my shoulder. He quickly kissed my cheek and laughed when Riley’s eyes widened. “See, they worked out their problems. Why cant we work out ours?” Harry asked. Riley turned back and pointed a finger at him. “We don’t have a problem. You have a problem.” She said before storming out of the kitchen and up to her room to finish packing. Her cousin glared at Harry before following after he. “Smooth mate.” Niall laughed. I elbowed him in the ribs and told him to be nice. Harry narrowed his eyes at Niall and made a face before walking out the front door.

~*~

Niall hadn’t left my side since I forgave him. Yesterday after Harry left, we helped Riley finish packing and brought the boxes to the truck. Liam, Louis, Zayn, Niall and I were all in the driveway saying out good byes to Riley. I didn’t want to see her leave, but I knew she wanted change. My stuff was already at the new house, waiting to be set up. “I’m going to miss you.” I mumbled as I hugged her for the tenth time at least. “I’ll miss you too.” She replied. “So much.”

Harry hadn’t shown up to say goodbye so she gave us all one last hug and got in her car. Her cousin was already waiting in the truck for her. As soon as she pulled out of the driveway he followed after her. I knew I was crying but I didn’t care. My best friend was gone and I didn’t know when, or if I would ever see her again. “It’s okay love, you’ll see her again. I promise.” Niall whispered while rubbing my back. I looked up at him and smiled. I knew he was right. I would see her again.

One day.

I looked at Liam and Zayn. They both looked so sad that she was gone. They had tears in their eyes but weren’t at the point of crying. I heard a hiccup and looked over at Louis. It was obvious that he was crying the hardest. “It’s okay Lou.” I said, walking over and giving him a big hug. He hugged me back and cried into my shoulder. I had no idea how bad this would affect him. And where was Harry?

Zayn and Liam took Louis to my new house so that he could rest up and calm himself down. Niall and I stayed behind and walked through my old place. “I just want to make sure I didn’t forget anything.” I said. Niall nodded and I started making my way upstairs. “Can you make sure there’s no garbage in the kitchen please?” I called to him. I walked through the bedrooms and all I found was an old sweater of Riley’s. I threw it on over my t-shirt and checked the bathroom. “Riley!?” A voice called.

Harry.

“She left already.” I announced while walking down the stairs. Harry groaned and grabbed at his hair. “I’m so stupid!” he mumbled. He pulled a phone out of his pocket and dialed a number. “She forgot this.” Niall said, walking out of the kitchen. Harry grabbed the leather journal and looked at it before turning on his heels. “Hello? Yeah, I need a taxi.” He said as he walked out the front door. “He’s crazy.” I mumbled while shaking my head. “Come on, let’s go home.” Niall said, grabbing my hand.

I guess Niall and I were officially together. He never asked me to be his girlfriend but we acted so much like a couple that I guessed we were. I was okay with that though. As long as I was the one who got to be with him. That was all I wanted. But did he see me as his girlfriend? “Niall, what is this?” I asked, motioning to our intertwined hands. “Us holding hands?” he guessed. I laughed and lightly smacked his shoulder. “No I mean, are we together?”

“Well, if I get to call you my girlfriend then yes, we are together.”

‘Girlfriend’ and ‘together’ were the two most perfect words I could have heard today. “Forever.” Niall whispered before kissing me.

Forever topped everything. I was finally getting my happy ending and it was everything I could ever want. It was perfect.

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