I would die for you, but I won't live for you -Niall Horan au

thirty-four

I woke up the next morning on the floor. It took me a moment to remember what happened last night but I did. I remembered everything from Niall saying we would be a cute couple to him banging his fist on my door. I guess that explains the look in Liam’s eyes last night. He knew what Niall was doing. I really needed Riley right now.

For all I knew she was still out with whatever guy she left with last night. I grabbed my cell and dialed her number. I sighed and hung up when I heard it ringing over in her room. I walked out of my room and into hers. Her bed was empty and her phone was sitting on her side table. Great she forgot it. Maybe Harry would know where she went.

I walked into his room and found him sitting on the edge of his bed in his boxers, pulling at his hair. He looked really upset. “Hey Hazz, are you okay?” I asked him. His head snapped up and his eyes widened. He stood up and ran a hand through his hair. “Yeah.” He mumbled. He scratched the back of his neck as I walked into his room. “Have you seen Riley?” I asked. His eyes grew wider and he started fumbling with his fingers. What was up with him?

That’s when I noticed the body lying in his bed and the clothes thrown all over the room. I recognized everything that was across the floor. I slowly walked around Harry to get a better look. I had a hunch about who it already was but I didn’t want to be right.

“Oh my God. You didn’t!” I hissed at Harry. He sat back down and put his head in his hands. I stayed quiet and when he sighed, I knew he wouldn’t be saying anything. “What were you thinking!? She’s just going to hate you more now!” I said, a little to loudly.  “I know! But she was drunk, and she looked so hot I couldn’t help myself and I -”

“You what!?”

We both turned to see Riley narrowing her eyes at Harry. “Please don’t tell me that we -” She looked like she wanted to cry. But she also looked angry. Harry reached for her but she backed away from him. “Riley.” Harry whispered.

“You took advantage of me!” She yelled at him. She quickly picked up one of Harry’s t-shirts that was on the floor and put it on. She got up and quickly rounded up all her belongings that were across the floor. Before she walked out, she turned to Harry with tears in her eyes. “And to think I was actually starting to like you.” She said before running out of the room.

“What’s wrong with me?” Harry mumbled. I decided to leave and go find Riley. We both needed to talk about what happened last night. I hurried down the hall and into her room. I found here there with he head buried in her pillow. “Riley…” I said as I sat beside her. I heard her sniffle and when she looked up at me, her eyes were all puffy and red. I opened my mouth to speak but was interrupted.

“Thanks a lot. You pretty much ruined both of my chances with the two only single One Direction boys!”

I looked towards the door and saw the blonde girl from last night. I got off of Riley’s bed, walked over, and slammed the bedroom door right in her face. I made sure to lock it this time so nobody would walk in. Especially Niall or Harry. I turned back to Riley who only looked confused. “What happened last night?” She asked. I sat down again and explained everything. I only left out the part of Harry liking her. She didn’t need to hear that right now.

“Well, the last little while Niall and I have been kinda acting like a couple. He kisses me, cuddles me, and holds my hand whenever nobody is looking.” I don’t know why I was telling her all this, it hurt talking about it. “Last night while you were in the shower, he told me that we would make a cute couple, so I thought he was saying he liked me.” I continued. I was rushing my words, trying to get them all out before I started crying again

“I saw Harry with that bitch last night so I went and asked him to help me find you and Niall. I spoke to Liam a little later on that night and he said you all left so I decided to come back.” I stopped there. I knew I couldn’t be able to go on without crying uncontrollably. I knew I was crying already but it was only a little bit, and I hadn’t even mentioned what else happened last night. “She mentioned two single boys.” Riley said. I took a nice, long, deep breath and continued.

“I got back and went to find Niall. And I found him having sex with her.” I watched Riley’s face go from shock, to sadness, to anger all at once. “That son of a bitch.” She got off the bed and made her way to the door.

This is a reason I loved Riley, she always stuck up for me no matter what situation I was in.

She didn’t get far before I stopped her. “It’s not worth it.” I sobbed. I was crying like crazy by this point. Something I didn’t want to happen. Riley sighed and there was a knock on the door.

“We’re all going for breakfast, do you two want to come?” Liam asked from behind the door. I could easily hear the sadness and worry in his voice. I looked at Riley and shook my head. I didn’t want to see Niall. “No we’re good.” Riley called back. We stayed quiet and waited for the sound of the door closing. When it did, Riley ran over to her closet and I walked to the window.

I watched as Louis and Zayn goofed around and Liam tried to calm them as Niall and Harry followed behind slowly. They both looked so upset but they brought it on themselves. They were in the wrong, not us. I was still really upset. I wasn’t crying as hard as I had been a few minutes ago, but tears were still coming. How could he tell me we’d be a cute couple the go and sleep with another girl? Could he tell how heart broken I was?

I heard Riley mumbling to herself behind me. I turned around and saw her throwing things into her suitcase. “What are you doing?” I asked. She looked at me briefly before continuing to pack. “I’m leaving.” She said. I could feel myself start to cry harder again. “Why?” I asked. She sighed and stopped what she was doing.

“I really liked Harry okay? I admit it. God knows why, but I did. Maybe I still do, I don’t know. But he took advantage of me and I need to get away from him before he can hurt me again. I need to get over this stupid crush.” She said.

I stayed quiet as she returned to her suitcase. Maybe she was right. Maybe getting away from Niall would prevent me from getting hurt again. I had gotten my hopes up. I even kept telling myself not to. But with the way Niall acted around me, I couldn’t help it.

I couldn’t leave the boys though. They just got back into my life and I didn’t want to lose them again. They were some of my favorite people. How could I have even thought about leaving them? I kept crying as I thought about this. What would be best for me in the long run? Staying or leaving?

“I’m coming with you.