I would die for you, but I won't live for you -Niall Horan au

fifteen

It had been at least three weeks since the boys came back. I’ve had individual days with all of them and it’s been great to catch up. Harry and I had been getting pretty close and were spending a lot of time together. More than we ever used to. But it still wasn’t as much as Niall and I spent together.

“Thanks again for letting us stay here.” Liam said. Again. I rolled my eyes and waved him off, not bothering to tell him to stop thanking me. I knew he wouldn’t. Everybody had some sort of plans today. Riley and Louis were going to hangout around the house, Harry and Niall wanted to have a “Narry day”, and Zayn wanted to go out and buy some new hair products so Liam volunteered to go with him.

Riley had spent barley any time with the boys so Louis insisted that they were due for a day together. As for me, I had plans of my own. “Do you want to come with us?” Niall asked as I walked down the stairs. “Sorry Nialler,” I said once I reached him and Harry. “Nick is picking me up soon.” I could have been going crazy, but I thought I saw a hurt expression on the both of their faces. I must have been imagining it.

“I can catch up with you later though.” I smiled. They smiled back and nodded. “Can we show you guys a song before you go?” Niall asked. I checked the time. Nick would be at least five minutes so there was enough time. “Sure!”

I followed them into the living room and sat down beside Riley on the couch. Niall grabbed his guitar and the boys stood in front of us. “This song is called Heart Attack.” Harry told us. Niall started strumming his guitar and the boys started singing.

(A/N) you can listen to the song :) -->

“Baby you got me sick,

I don't know what I did, 


Need to take a break and figure it out,

Yeah,

Got your voice in my head,

Saying let's just be friends,

Can't believe the words came out of your mouth,

Yeah

I’m trying to be okay


I’m trying to be alright


But seeing you with him


Just don’t feel right

And I’m like oww


Never thought it’d hurt so bad


Getting over you


And oww


You’re giving me a heart attack


Looking like you do


Cause you’re all I ever wanted


Thought you would be the one that’s oww


Giving me a heart attack getting over you”

Once they finished, I couldn’t believe how good it was! “It’s on our next album.” Zayn smiled. “It’s amazing!” I cheered. I got up and gave the boys a hug. It really was great. The doorbell rang and Harry went to grab it. I followed slowly behind him. “Hey babe.” I heard Nick say. Clearly he didn’t know that I wasn’t the one who answered the door. “Um… hello.” Harry replied.

“I’m ready!” I said, breaking the awkwardness. Niall, Zayn and Liam had now joined us at the door. “See you later!” Niall said to me, following Harry out the door. “Bye!” Zayn and Liam said, walking out behind them. “Bye boys!” I called after them. I followed Nick outside and down to his car. We kept driving until we reached my favorite breakfast place.

“Are they always there?” Nick laughed humorlessly. “They’re actually staying with Ri and I.” I told him. I scanned the menu even though I already knew what I was getting. He didn’t look too pleased but he nodded anyways. I started up a conversation about the boys’ world tour coming up and even though Nick didn’t look interested, I kept going on about it.

I had told him all about the boys and how much I missed them but he never seemed happy that they were in my life again. Things felt awkward real fast and I suddenly wished I had taken Niall up on his offer. “I don’t like it.” Nick said. I raised an eyebrow at him, as if asking what he meant. “That they’re living in the same house as you. All you do is talk about them!” He fumed.

“What’s wrong with them staying at my place?” I asked, crossing my arms over my chest. “Well you were in love with that Neil kid an-”

“Niall.”

“So how do I know you don’t still have feelings for him anymore?” He continued. You have got to be kidding me. “Come on Nick, that was over two years ago!” I argued. “You can’t go that long without seeing somebody and still have feelings for them.”

“Do you love me?” I was so caught off guard, and didn’t answer right away. “Of course I do!” I finally replied. And I did love him. I might not love him as much as I loved Niall, but I have known Niall a lot longer. “But are you in love with me.” I couldn’t answer. Why couldn’t I? It was a simple question. I could say yes and this whole argument would be over with.

“Maybe we should take a break. Just so you can figure out how you actually feel.” Nick sighed. I still said nothing. What was I going to say? In a way, he basically just broke up with me. I nodded and stood up from my seat and left the restaurant. I started walking in the direction of my apartment. It wasn’t long before I realized how stupid I was being.

I had six best friends, all of which could drive. Why was I wasting my time walking? I pulled out my phone and dialed the number of the first person I could think of. It wasn’t long before my white Escalade pulled up beside me. I smiled and jumped into the front seat. “Hey.” He said. “I thought you were out with your boyfriend today?” I shrugged and got comfy. “We had a little… misunderstanding.” I replied. He drove off not saying another word.

“Thanks, Harry.”