I would die for you, but I won't live for you -Niall Horan au

twenty-two

(A/N) sorry it's been a late update... I've been super busy and the website was acting up.. but I'm gonna put up a few chapters today! :) enjoy! vote/comment?

It had almost been a week. Why was it going so slow? I just wanted to go to Florida! Today we wanted to go to the beach. I guess we were all just dreaming about the ones in Florida. “Come on Payton! Lets go!” I heard Louis call. I quickly walked downstairs to find everybody in their bathing suits. The boys had their swim trunks and t-shirts on and Riley was in her bikini with a pair of short, sunglasses, and beach bag. Everybody was ready to go except for me. “Where’s your bikini.” Niall pouted

I shrugged and laughed at the blonde boy. “Don’t feel like wearing it.” I mumbled. I motioned for everybody to start moving but nobody budged. “Are you insecure?” Louis joked. I didn’t answer. Instead I looked down at my feet. “Oh my God… she is!” Zayn gasped. I looked up in time to see Liam smack both Louis and Zayn on the back of the head.

Yeah, I was insecure. About my hair, my face, my voice, my body, everything. “You’re insecure, don’t know what for. You’re turning heads when you walk through the door-or-or” Riley sang, attempting to make me feel better. It worked a bit, I laughed and shook my head at her.

The boys exchanged glances before nodding and turning back to me. “Can we show you our new song?” Niall asked. I nodded and followed them into the living room. Niall grabbed his guitar from the corner it had been sitting in and once everyone was settled in, he started playing.

“Your hand fits in mine, like its made just for me, but bare this in mind it was meant to be, and I’m joining up the dots with the freckles on your cheeks and it all makes sense to me.” Zayn started. I had heard them sing before, but never a song like this.

“I know you’ve never loved the crinkles by your eyes, when you smile you’ve never loved, your stomach or your thighs. The dimples in you back at the bottom of you spine, but I'll love them endlessly” Liam sang. “I won’t let these little things, slip, out, of my mouth. But if I do, it’s you, oh it’s you, they add up to, I’m in love with you, and all these little things.” The two of them sang together.

Their voices were so beautiful. They were strong and kind at the same time. And they fit so well together it was crazy. They had just started singing the song but I could already tell that it was about a boy who loves everything about a girl, even her insecurities.

“You can’t go to bed, without a cup of tea, maybe that’s the reason that you talk, in your sleep. And all these conversations are the secrets that I keep, though it makes no sense to me.” Louis had a very unique voice. It was soft but playful. Kind of like him I guess.

“I know you’ve never loved, the sound of your voice on tape, you never want, to know how much you weight, you still have to squeeze into your jeans but you’re perfect to me.” Harry’s voice was also unique. It was powerful and husky. But it was the good kind of husky. I could have sworn I saw Harry take a few glances at Riley while he was singing. He must have still felt bad about the weight comment. But, they were getting pretty friendly lately.

“I won’t let these little things, slip, out, of my mouth. But if it’s true, it’s you, it’s you, they add up to, I’m in love with you, and all these little things.” Harry sang with Niall joining in softly in the background.

“You’ll never love yourself half as much as I love you. You’ll never treat yourself right darling but I want you too. If I let you know, I’m here, for you, maybe you’ll love yourself like I, love, you, oh.” Niall’s voice was soft and you could slightly hear his Irish accent. It was so cute. While he was singing, we looked each other right in the eyes the whole time and it felt as if he were singing this for me.

“And I’ve just let these little things, slip, out, of my mouth…” Harry started. “Because it’s you, oh it’s you, it’s you, they add up to, and I’m in love with you, and all these little things.”

“I won’t let these little things, slip, out, of my mouth, but if it’s true, it’s you, it’s you, they add up to, and I’m in love with you. And all your little things.” They finished together. I hadn’t realized I was tearing up until one escaped. I quickly wiped it away, praying nobody saw it.

“That was a beautiful song.” Riley said. I nodded, agreeing with her. “It really was. Did you guys write it?” I asked. The five of them all shook their heads. “No, our friend Ed wrote it when he was seventeen.” Harry explained. It really was an amazing song, and I loved it. Especially with their voices.

“Do you know why we sang it Riley?” Niall asked. I shook my head no. I didn’t have a clue why they sang it, but I’m glad they did. “We sang it because no matter how insecure you may be, or how much you don’t like things about yourself, we love every part of you. You’re our best friend.” Liam explained while the boys nodded along.

I couldn’t help myself, I jumped up from where I was sitting and tackled the boys with a hug. “Thank you.” I whispered as the five of them wrapped me up into a group hug. Once they let me go, I ran upstairs and put on my favorite bathing suit with a pair of shorts over top.

I put on a pair of sunglasses and threw my hair into a ponytail. I grabbed towel and threw all the little things I needed into a beach bag and I was ready to go. “Don’t be insecure girl, own that pony tail, work that up-do!” Louis cheered as I walked down the stairs. I laughed and once I got to the bottom, I did a little twirl, showing off my body.

They were right, we were best friends; I shouldn’t feel shy about my body when I was with them. I could weigh two-hundrd pounds and they would still be my best friends. They wouldn’t judge me. “Let’s go!” Zayn cheered. Niall, Zayn and Liam jumped into my car while Harry and Louis got into Riley’s. The ride was only about twenty minutes so we got there in no time.

It was busy, but not so busy that there was no room for us to put our stuff. We laid our towels down and sat on them. “Ouu, going fishing. See ya later.” Riley said, standing up from her towel. “Fishing?” Niall wondered. I laughed at the confused expression on each of their faces. “Boy fishing.” I explained. I turned my head back towards where Riley had walked off to and saw her approaching a group of guys.

“She’s always been a flirt, but she’s never approached guys like that before.” Zayn said. I shrugged and stretched out on my towel. “Ever since she’s lost weight she’s been more confident.” I said. “Her a flirt? Since when?” Harry asked. I laughed. “Oh Hazza, you were to busy insulting her to notice.” Louis said, patting Harry’s knee. Harry pushed Louis hand away from his knee and stood up. “Let’s go swimming.” He suggested. Wow, what was his problem? He looked over at Riley before walking to the water with Louis, Liam and Niall following behind .