Escaping Lies

Prologue

Prologue

Being a daughter of one of a business tycoon is not easy. They said that I'm such a lucky girl 'cause they can give all the things that I want. Maybe they can, but I know it's not enough.

It's not easy to be a daughter in a parents like them. They can give all the material things in this world to me, but how about the love that I want them to give for me? The attention? The care of the parents? How does it feel when your parents is on your side always? How does it feels when your parents always ask like 'How was your day?' 'Are you okay?' or any message that can flutter my heart.

Money. That's all they want. They want to gain the popularity, even though they have a daughter who wants a care in the world. They trust their daughter to other people for them to take care of her. They didn't think of what their daughter feel if they did that. And that daughter is me.

Sanay ako na wala sila palagi dito. Kapag gusto ko maglabas ng sama ng loob, what is on my mind, how does my feeling, I always kept it to myself because no one is there for me. Ayoko manggulo ng buhay ng iba even though I have friends, 'cause I know we all have problems pero iba iba lang kung paano kakaharapin.

In this house, ako, maid, driver lang ang andito. This house is huge but it's not happy. Malaki oo, pero di mo mafifeel that you are belong . No one is. Maybe my parents, because they're not always here. They belong in this house kasi ito naman yung pinaghirapan nilang dalawa.

My day is not complete if I didn't cry at night. I didn't want to be part of this. I just want a simple family who can make me happy. Family where you can get all the love that is true but for me? I dont think so. 'Yun kasi yung pinaramdam sa ‘kin ng magulang ko. I should be contented with the things I have, kasi yun yung pinaghirapan nila, not knowing na isa lang naman yung gusto ko sa kanila. Love. Love which is naggaling sa puso nila hindi sa pera nila. And this is so fucked up.

But maybe, even though how ridiculous your life is, there's always a person who can make it complete. Who can make you complete. Where you can say that you are contented with what he/she can gives you. It change me. He change me. He change my perspectives in life. He change all of me with positivity. That I should be proud of  myself, with wide smile and confidence.

He didn't make me feel that I wasn't enough. He's like my guardian angel who make me whole. He made me a better version of myself. He made me love myself and love my surroundings, how should I appreciate it.

But sometimes, there's this cliche in our life. Even how happy you are, there's always an end. It's not forever. Maybe there's a lifetime but not forever. My dream's end. It was like my life is in the beggining again, which I should appreciate because he taught me like I should be like that. It's for the better.

Dati sleep is my medicine in this earth. Sleep is my way to leave the reality and I want this to be a fantasy, which my sleep can make it. I always want to sleep for me to forget all the pain, and anxiety I have. It did work. Sleep is the medicine that can cure but my dream is the one who complete the whole me that sleep can't.

Dream is one of the best cure for me in this life. It taught me so many things in just one dream. Dreams do always come true but, we are in a reality and we should live like that.

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Again, expect the changes po. This story is an edited one. Thank you.