Escaping Lies

Chapter 29

Chapter 29

Nanatili pa kami 'ron ng ilan pang mga minuto hanggang sa tuluyan na silang nag iyakan ulit dahil na 'rin sa mga nangyari sa kanila.

I am happy. I hope so.

I don't know when will I be happy again after knowing the truth.

I just realized, baka hindi ako worth it sa buhay  na maganda at marangya kaya ganito palagi ang nangyayari sa akin.

I wonder if my parents are rich or they are just average?

If my mother is still alive will she love me? Love me as how I lack of it?

Or even so, if my father have found me again will he love me?

Am I worth it for a beautiful life?

Or am I just living because that's what my mind said?

I want this unanswered question to be answer but I don't know where to start.

Hindi ko na sila kilala. Wala akong kilala sa kanila. Buti pa sila kilala na nila ang tunay nilang pagkatao, e ako?

Ano nga bang alam ko sa sarili ko?

Did you even try to ask yourself kung anong kulang sayo?

Did you even try to ask yourself if you are not worth the love?

Did you even try to ask yourself if you are not worth the happiness?

Because that is the question I want to answer right now.

Lagi nilang sinasabi na don't disgrade yourself pero bakit sila din ang dahilan kung bakit natin hinila pababa ang sarili natin?

We are lack of confidence because we are afraid that they might judge us.

Sila din ang humahanap ng sarili mong ikakasira. How cliche, kapwa mo pa ang siyang hihila sayo pababa na dapat naman ay siyang magaangat sa’yo.

At 'yun ang nararamdaman ko ngayon. I feel so lost. I know this is not right, but I can't help to feel jealous with them just because they know their real family while I am here don't even know where to start finding them.

Like wow. As in wow.

"I hope we can catch up soon after I bail myself on the bars..."

"I am looking forward to that day.."

"Yeah same..."

"Hindi ba ako kasali dyan?" biglang salita ng nasa likod nila.

Napatingin kami sa mama ni David na kanina pa hindi kumikibo at nakatayo lang do’n. Still shock siguro sa mga nalaman niya. Tita, Riane’s mother, on the other hand, I think she undestand the situation, especially, she lose her daughter.

"Wow, is this kinda reunion?" aniya pa ulit.

"Kris!"

"K!" magkasabay na hiyaw ni Mommy at tita.

Err. Di pa 'rin ako sanay na hindi siya tawaging Mommy.

Napatingin ako kay Auntie na nakatingin lang sa tatlo na ngayon ay nagbebeso beso.

Lumingon ang babae sa gawi namin or should I say kay Auntie mismo?

"What now, Mads? Hindi mo man lang ba ako babatiin?"

"Argh! Ayoko ng drama ngayon, KK!"

They just laughed even though I can't find any funny on what Auntie said.