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𝗲𝗶𝗴𝗵𝘁𝗲𝗲𝗻

Anxiety

"christmas break is the only time we can go. there's no other way. after we get all of my stuff moved out and into quinn's house, we can all separate and go where we need to go." lorelei stated. caleb, sadie, and gaten had come back over the next day.

"lorelei, you're only 15. you can't move out without parental permission." sadie stated.

"they obviously don't want me there and i turn 16 in a week!" lorelei responded.

"yeah, but you need permission." sadie said. although sadie was right, lorelei wasn't having it. she wanted out of that house and she wanted out now.

"sadie's right, lore. you can't just leave." caleb agreed.

"you're not listening to me! by them not wanting me there, they're basically giving me permission to leave! they don't notice when i'm not there!" lorelei raised her voice. she was getting frustrated. she just wanted out.

"i know what you're saying but-"

"no you don't, sadie! you're telling me no!" lorelei yelled, holding onto the tears trying to escape her eyes.

"does quinn even know about this?" gaten asked.

"no! i was trying to get you guys in on it before i asked her!" lorelei finally let her tears go. she was just so frustrated with them.

"ok, well, if your mom and quinn are ok with it then i'll go, but i'm not going without anyone's permission. i don't want to get in trouble." sadie said, standing up from her spot on the couch. "call me over when you're calm. i love you." she added before leaving the apartment.

"i'm with sadie. we love you, lorelei, and just want what's best for you." caleb said and gaten nodded. they both stood up and waved as they left.

"lorelei, they're just trying to help." noah said, sitting down beside her.

"i need to be alone. i'll come to your room when i'm calm. i love you." lorelei said, standing up and walking to her room as tears streamed down her face. she shut the door as she pulled out her phone.

sissy <3

lore
if i packed my things and left
would you let me move in?

sissy <3
please don't tell me you've
already left. you need
mom's permission first

lore
but they already don't want
me there. what purpose is
getting permission?

sissy <3
so they don't say i've
kidnapped you or i'm holding
you hostage. i don't want to
get in trouble, but of course
i'll help you

lore
i'm asking mom. i don't want
to go back "home"
and i especially don't want noah
visiting my dad

sissy <3
we can work out details when
you get mom's permission

—

"i'm calm now." lorelei said as she stood in the doorway of noah's room. she had been crying for a few hours so her cheeks were red and her eyes were puffy. she hadn't asked her mom yet, but she would soon. she just needed support as she waited for the answer.

noah stood up from his bed and walked towards lorelei. he wrapped his arms around her and lorelei relaxed in his touch. she let a few tears go as she rested her head on his shoulder.

"i'm sorry." lorelei almost whispered. it was barely loud enough for noah to hear.

"there's no need to apologize to me." noah responded as he rubbed the girls back.

"i yelled at all of them. i feel terrible." lorelei cried, lifting up her head to meet noah's eyes.

"c'mon. everyones at sadie's apartment." noah said, grabbing her hand and leading her to the door. they didn't have to worry about millie opening the door because she had moved into finn's apartment. gaten moved out of finn's and into sadie's.

"lorelei." sadie smiled as she quickly pulled her into a tight hug.

"i'm so sorry. i shouldn't have yelled at you."

"shhhh. it's ok. stop crying." sadie said, mothering lorelei. "come in."

—

after apologizing to everyone, it was finally time to ask her mom. this was the final decision. it would decide if she finally got out of that hell hole or not.

mom

lorelei
hey mom
are you there?

mom
hi
are you out of the
hospital?

lorelei
yes
can i ask you something?

mom
sure but make it quick
i don't have a very long
work break

lorelei
can i move in with quinn?
i can't stand it there

mom
yes
i've been waiting for you
to ask for a while
i knew your dad would be too
much after a while, but i
though you would've asked when
she moved out
i'm glad you'll be safe
i'm glad you're safe now

lorelei
thank you so much

mom
i'm so sorry. i've been a
shitty mom
i love you

lorelei
i love you too
and i forgive you

"i can't believe it." lorelei said. "i'm moving out."

the apartment quickly filled with celebration. for the first time, lorelei was celebrating to go back home.

"wanna do something spontaneous?" gaten asked the group. the group looked at the boy, questioning his thoughts. "let's get drunk."

"gaten, that's illegal." sadie said.

"oh, yeah, because you've never been drunk before. it seems like last time we were filming something like that happened. oh yeah! it did!" caleb joked.

"well, no ones home, but we can't drink all of it. we can't get extremely drunk. just a little buzzed." sadie responded.

"wait are you guys serious?" lorelei asked. everyone nodded with a smile. "i've never drank before."

"there's a first for everything."

a:/n: i'm pretty sure i wrote this at 3 in the morning but i spell checked it so enjoy??