30 Days With You (RitKen Fanfiction)

05

DANI woke up the next day feeling refreshed. It felt like she's beginning a new life. Like a second chance of living. Ganoon ang pakiramdam niya.

Sa pagmulat pa lang ng mga mata niya ay nakita na niya agad si Grant na mahimbing ang tulog habang yakap-yakap siya. Waking up next to him is a dream come true. She never thought that this day will come again. Akala niya hanggang doon na lang sila kung saan sila natapos two years ago. Hindi niya akalain na masusundan pa pala.

She watch him asleep. Kung darating ang araw na kakailanganin na talaga niyang umalis, her heart will surely break for him. Hindi niya alam kung ano ang magiging reaksyon nito. Kung paano nito tatanggapin ang lahat. She just hope that someday, when she's gone, he will found someone to love him just as much as she loves him. Or someone who can love him more that she loves him. She just wish that that woman will come on the right time.

She caressed his face. "If one day and I have to go, I wish you find a woman who's better at me in loving you. A woman who will be the best for you." Mahinang saad niya. Her heart is tearing apart.

Akala ba niya, she'll live her life to the fullest? Bakit ngayon ang laki na ng takot niya? Was it because of him? And now she's even thinking of getting chemotherapy. Ngunit papaano niya gagawin iyon kung mahahalata naman nito? Should she tell him the truth? Her whole truth?

Nagulat siya nang biglang magsalita ang binata.

"You're the best woman for me," he said with his eyes closed. Hinila pa siya nito palapit at mahigpit na niyakap. He opened his eyes and looked at her. "Don't ever think of leaving me again, Dani. I already found the best woman in you. Stay with me."

She don't know what to say. Suddenly, there's a lump in her throat. Parang pinipigilan siya sa pagsasalita. Is it the right time to tell him everything? Pero hindi pa rin siya handa. Hindi niya alam kung paano iyon sasabihin.

Hi, Grant. I have leukemia. I think I'm dying in a few months.

It wasn't as easy at that. Hindi puwedeng basta ganoon na lang ang sabihin niya.

"Is something wrong, Dani? May hindi ka ba sinasabi sa'kin?" He inquired. Titig na titig ito sa kanya at tila binabasa ang kilos niya.

Pilit na ngumiti siya at umiling. "Wala. I just thought about how uncertain the future might be. What ifs lang." She shrugged it off.

"I am certain that no one's going to replace you in my heart. I promise you that." Hinalikan nito ang tungki ng ilong niya. "I love you."

She smiled. "I love you too."

Grant reached for her lips and kissed her lightly. He smiled at her after that.

"Don't ever think that someone out there is better than you because I don't give a damn about them. All that I need is you, Dani. Always remember that."

She nodded. Muli siya nitong binigyan ng mabilis na halik sa labi at isang halik sa noo. He hugged her again afterwards. Muli siyang nakatulog sa mga bisig ng binata.

She woke up again feeling cold. Hindi niya alam ngunit napapadalas talaga ang lagnat niya nitong mga nakaraang buwan kahit na wala naman siyang gaanong ginagawa. Madalas din na makaramdam siya ng pagod.

Pilit siyang bumangon ngunit sumidhi naman ang sakit ng ulo niya. Malabo rin ang tingin niya sa paligid kaya hindi na niyang pinilit pa ang sarili.

She felt someone touched her forehead. Pilit niyang inaninag kung sino iyon. Nag-aalalang mukha ni Grant ang nakita niya.

"You have fever," he said. Agad na nag-utos ito sa kung sino na kumuha ng gamot. Inayos nito ang kumot na nakatabing sa katawan niya.

"Water," she requested. Nanunuyo na kasi ang lalamunan niya.