☀︎︎|Ahmad|☀︎︎
|Charlotte,NC|
|4:45am|the next day|
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📍 Ahmad House📍
"Dad dad,stop what are you doing"I heard next to me.
I slightly opened my eyes and saw zuriya sweating with her brows furrowed and tossing and turning.
"Riya"I shook her."wake up girl"I shook her violently and tapped her cheek with my fingertips in hopes to wake her up.
"STOP DAD"I pushed her off the bed after she screamed that shit.
I'm just tryna wake her ass up sittin there screaming in my ear and shit.
"Nigga"she got up off the floor and glared at me with her head tilted.
"What you wouldn't wake up not my fault"I shrugged.
"So you push me off the bed dickhead"she mumbled and got back into the bed staring at the wall at nothing in particular just looking deep in thought .
"Come here"I pointed to my lap.
She got up and sat on my lap putting her head onto my chest while I latched my hands onto her waist.
"What's wrong"I rubbed my hands up and down her back trying to stop her heart from beating so fast.
"It's just nightmares and flashbacks From when I was younger"she shrugged and I felt her heart speed up.
"You wanna talk about it"
"Maybe later not right now"I nodded and laid back onto the pillow with her still on top of me.
I won't finna push her to tell me anything cause I still got shit about my past that I ain't told nobody and she ain't pressured me to tell her so I won't do that to her.
A few minutes later I heard sniffles so I turned my light in and picked her head up off me.
"Move yo hands"I told her as I tried pulling them from her face.
She moved her hands and I tilted my head and furrowed my brows seeing there was no tears coming out but her nose was red.
"Ma why you doing whatever the fuck you doin"
She explained her whole past to me telling me the reason she was put into a ward and then how she got her disorders.
She was abused and raped by her own step-father and her momma.
I could kind of relate,my mother was a crack fiend and would do anything for it including sell me to be a mans punching bag when I was only 7 years old and couldn't defend myself.
Zuriya told me about her disorders the voices in her head and just shit like that.
"So every time that happened,every time a different man raped me,every time my 'father' beat me"she closed her eyes tight and shook her head.
"I'd cry to the point where my eyes wouldn't allow me to have tears anymore,I slowly became numb to everything that happened because I knew the more I cried the more I'd look weak and the more they'd beat me seeing the satisfaction on their face made me feel like I was just giving in to their games so I stopped crying and haven't cried since I was 11"she continued and laid her head on the pillow next to my face while still on top of me.
"I didn't give any man my attention because I read them like a book and knew exactly what they wanted from me,but with you I can't read you but I know it's things to you that I don't know but I feel safe and happy around you so I'm gonna be here with you until you fuck me over"
I drew circles on her back and took in everything that she was telling me.
"I don't believe that o would ever fuck you over but imma always be here for you mama"I told her and I truly meant it.
Before her I was in a bad place and didn't feel like I'd ever have feelings towards somebody like I have feelings towards Z.
"Always and forever?"she picked her head up and looked at me with puppy dog eyes while holding out her pinky.
I chuckled and caressed her cheek and kissed it.
"Always and forever love"I wrapped my pinky around hers as we kissed our pinky's together and then each others lips putting our foreheads together.
"Now go back to sleep it's fo in the mornin"I pushed her off of me and turned over turning the light back off.
"Nigga fuck you what you push me for"she sat up mugging me.
"Cause I can"I side eyed her and pushed her head down onto the pillow.
"Imma beat yo ass later today just fa that"she flipped over and plopped her legs onto mine and putting her hands on my jr like I do with her punani sometimes.
"Girll-"
"Shhh just go to sleep daddy"she cut me off.
I rolled my eyes and slowly fell asleep to the music that played in the background.
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Just another filler chapter that I had in my notes that I found.
Still doing schoolwork😒.
I'm finna tell my momma to call the school and cuss them out again and tell them stop putting work in my damn canvas shit.
And also if y'all want a POV of a different character then go ahead and tell me so I can go ahead and put y'all suggestions into my notes!!
But yeah anyways vote in this book and tell me if y'all like it cause if ya don't...then don't😭.
