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Jungkook's Epilogue

Jungkook's past ended up being the only one that I was able to witness in full detail thanks to his speciality. Instead of a proper Q&A for Jungkook like I had planned on doing, he insisted on showing me everything himself through his memories, and I was more than willing to let him show me. Him admitting that he could easily just give me a glimpse of his experiences was how I'd figured out his defining factor, and it excited me to discover it. That would be the same way I felt when I figured out everyone else's, too. Just the simple thought of finding out everyone else's factor was what excited me the most about this whole process.

We spent a couple of hours sitting there as Jungkook showed me his past, and by the time it was all over, I had been shocked. I hadn't at all expected him to have been one of the Hosts. It had looked though as if he expected from the start that I would be extremely surprised when we finished.

"I was the third one," Jungkook had said to me with a regretful sigh, "and I might've been the best one for it..."

I could tell from the way he said that to me that he felt guilty for being a Host, and I didn't blame him for feeling that way. I tried my best after that to reassure him that there was nothing to be so discouraged about and that he did nothing wrong. It was a role that he had that he couldn't help having. He never had a choice.

He continued.

"Even without seeing anything, I know that it's getting so much worse for them," Jungkook said with worry in his eyes. "I don't know if it'll be much longer until it wins."

It had broken my heart to hear him say that. Hearing that had made me almost certain that there was still a part of that thing left in him. I never did say that out loud, but it was only because I didn't want him to return to that fearful state that his past had put him through. Jungkook had been at his best until a few weeks ago, when, he confessed, his same headaches from before had begun returning to him. And as you definitely are aware now at the time that I write this, it wouldn't be long until it all fell even farther downhill from there.

In time, everyone else would eventually figure out that he was a Host, and we all made sure after that to keep a close eye on him as things began to get worse. It was like his past had started itself over again, except we all were there for him this time to help keep him safe. We tried our best as time passed, but as the Hosts all met together, we were forced to let him go on his own with the two of them to handle the demon that he had to deal with in his past. You were gone by then...

Not only was Jungkook the final home for this demon, but he was also one of the three who knew exactly what it was capable of. He and the other two Hosts knew it the best, which is why they'd been called upon to keep everyone else safe.

We aren't ourselves whenever he's gone. It always feels so empty when all seven of us aren't together. We all constantly worry for him and hope that he's safe, wherever he may be, and we always keep telling ourselves that at some point, this all will be over and that he'll finally return to us as the happy kid that we've missed so much.

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