Until Eternity BxB

chapter 29

Chapter 29

After wallowing in self-pity for a few hours I decided to get off my bed and go for a walk, I didn't go anywhere specific , I just walked wherever my feet wanted me to go , I ended up at the park where I sat on the swings. I am honestly convinced that this place is abandoned. There are hardly any visits here and it doesn't seem to be cleaned a lot.

I didn't leave the park until really late, I wished that I had taken my phone with me to act like a flashlight but I wasn't planning to be there as long as I was. I slowly walked home , it was late and I was hungry and tired and emotionally exhausted. All I wanted to do was sleep for the next one hundred years or so.

When I got to my house I was in a bad mood to say the least , I didn't take my shoes off as I trekked mud into my house, I would deal with that another time . It's normal to have times of grieving or so the many self-help books that I have read have told me so. I got myself a pot noodle because I couldn't be bothered to do anything fancy, I knew that there was a whole tub of ice-cream that I could attack if my emotions got too overwhelming.

It took me a good half an hour to finish my pot noodle, considering I kept getting lost in my thoughts. I suppose that if you don't look back at memories and your pas emotion then they could come back full force and slap you in the face. I suppose I know that now.

I felt rather low in my life sat on the settee with messy hair eating a tub of ice-cream, with sad movies on the television. My phone vibrating caught my attention, I had brought it downstairs with me after a lot of time staring at my bedroom ceiling and I just left it on the coffee table in the middle of the room.

I picked it up to see that someone was calling me, I was a bit too in shock that someone was actually phoning me that I didn't answer. After a while I looked at the notifications on my phone to see three missed calls from Maddox. I instantly felt bad. I wasn't expecting Maddox to phone me today, I had thought that Maddox would be doing things to get his mind off what happened and that he would spend the night with his family watching quiz shows or something.

I decided to ring him back , just so that he didn't feel like I was ignoring him, I hadn't used my voice all day and I hoped that wasn't too noticeable. He picked up almost immediately , it was as though he had his phone in his hand and was expecting it to start ringing "Hello?" I heard a tired voice say on the other end which was unmistakably Maddox.

"Good evening Maddox, how are you doing?" I tried to ask gently and sound somewhat upbeat and happy . Maddox gave a chuckle and replied "hehe you don't sound too happy yourself there, but i'm fine I guess, hey I gotta talk to you..."He trailed off at the end , I was afraid of this, nothing good ever comes from ' I have to talk to you' .

"Umm okay then yeah I haven't had the best of days ...perhaps we could meet up tomorrow?" I heard a sigh of relief before Maddox responded in a much happier tone "Oh yes please! I wanted to ask that but i didn't want to seem pushy...would you mind picking me up and taking me to yours? I think it would be better without the parents dropping eaves . Oh and thank you sooo much for the owl! her name is athena!"

I gave a large laugh at his childishness, I almost had tears coming from my eyes . "Athena is a perfect name for an owl, do you name all of your stuffed animals? oh and yeah I think that would also be best if we were to come and converse at my house..."

Maddox gave a very dramatic gasp at my words "you mean i haven't introduced you to my stuffed animals? oh that will not do , after our conversation you can come to my house and you can meet them. I'm joking! ....but yes they do have names "

He gave off a nervous chuckle which caused me to smile slightly "Maddox we all have an inner child and it's okay to let it show now and then, I'm the one who is currently watching up..." I trailed off at the end, it was okay for Maddox to show off his inner child, Though I wasn't expecting me to be so open about mine. It is my belief that we all have a young spirit inside of us which holds childishness and an imagination as big as a young one's .

"Awe that's a sad beginning...but anyway I should go to bed, I will see you tomorrow? at around the same time as usual?" It was just now coming to me that he had said after our conversation tomorrow...he still wants to see me? That makes me feel a bit better about our conversation and the outcome. It also made me wonder what the conversation would be about... "Chester? are you still there?"

I snapped out of my train of thought and replied "Oh yes same time as normal Maddox, I'll look forward to seeing you , have a good night!" A massive blush came to my cheeks out of embarrassment but it only got worse when Maddox replied with "Night night Chester, love you!" before hanging up .

I let the phone drop from my hand and I leant my head back , oh my goodness that did not just happen. I had the opportunity to say i love you and i didn't take it...but at least he told me i love you. I felt like a teenager obsessing over the little things, sometimes i wish that i had someone to talk to , so that we could gossip like teenagers and decode everything that is said to us.