Broken Hearted Boy

Chapter 15~The Past (Continued)

Chapter 15~The Past (Continued)

        "You still recording?" I asked Amanda as we reached the door.

"Yes. Are you sure this is what you want to do Jordan?" she asked, with concern in her eyes. She really did care about me.

"Yes, I am certain. They deserve this Amanda and you know it. You agree with me, that doing this is right." She nodded at me. I sighed and looked at the door. This is all going to be solved in a few moments. I can do this. I breathed in and rand the doorbell, so they could wake up in case they were sleeping. I saw the lights turn on and I saw a shadow moving slowly towards the door and my heart started racing. I was ready. They deserve this Jordan. They told you they don't want you after you spent a lot of your time trying to find them because you loved them at the time. I breathed in and watched as the door opened. It was the woman. I pointed my gun at her and Amanda said "Look, you scream and he shots? Get it, got it? Good." The woman had tears in her eyes as she nodded and moved out of our way as we walked into the house. I looked towards the steps and saw that the hallway light was on. "Is he the only here?" I asked as I pointed the gun towards the steps. The woman shut the door and looked towards me.

"Who? Your father?" she asked. This dumb bitch.

"NO!", I started yelling, "He is not my father! I am disowning myself from you...you...you monsters!!" I turned and looked at her. The tears in her eyes finally fell out. They trickled down her face and it was killing me. Killing me that she wasn't dead but it was making me happy. She was feeling pain, but not as much as pain I have right now and had for how many years now. I was never wanted but all of a sudden they want a  child that is going to feel wanted and to me that just doesn't make sense. I shook my head and turned. I heard footsteps coming down the steps. I aimed the gun at him and said "Don't even do it. Call the police or make a sinlge sound and I swear to god.. I'll.. I'll..." I was started to fade. What was I going to do? I want them to suffer not die right away.

"He'll shoot you in the knee or back and have you die painfully." Amanda said with confidence in her voice. Thank god for her being here for me. I stared into his eyes, he looked scared. Good, be scared of me dear Daddy-O.

"Let's go into the kitchen and sit down and have a talk. Shall we Daddy-O." I smirked at him and waved the gun towards the kitchen. Amanda did the same to Mommy-O. I watched as they walked into the kitchen, they were listening to me and going by what I was saying. Mommy-O is the only one who is in pain at the moment. Daddy-O needs to have some kind of pain. How to make him get pain. Lemme think.. then it hit me, hard. They sat down at the kitchen table and looked at me. I put my gun in the back of my jeans as Amanda kept her gun at aim at them. I smiled at Mommy-O and Daddy-O.

"Why are you doing this to us?" Mommy-O said, while crying and snifflying.

"Well, Mommy-O and Daddy-O it took me awhile to find you guys. Now, lemme tell you that I didn't find you guys to come and threaten you guys. I didn't want to kill you guys, this isn't why I found you guys. I found you guys because I thought I loved you guys and that you guys loved me and that maybe you just couldn't handle a child at the moment. You could of lied to me about not wanting me. You should of lied but since you were so straight forward it had to be this. I hate you. I hate the both of you. I am doing this so the baby in your stomach doesn't have to go throught what I did. I hate you both so much with a passion." I said with anger rising more and more. I hate them so much.

"Look, Jordan we thought that if we came and told you the truth it would work out better." Daddy-O said.

"Well, it didn't. Now did it Daddy-O. You fucked up Mommy-O's life. You do know that right. You do because I can tell. You know you hurt her and it kills you deep down." I could tell that I broke him because he can't keep his stare on me. His eyes were starting to water up and he couldn't look at me anymore. He looked at her then at the ground. Amanda looked at me and nodded her head. That meant it was time. Time to give my speech and get rid of them. Time to have them rot in hell while I stay up her glowing in the light. I can do this. I have this all planned out. I can do this. They deserve this. I breathed in and looked at Mommy-O and Daddy-O.It was time. I am ready. I got this.

"Now, I have this speech to give you. Any questions?" I asked with a smirk on my face. No questions, good. This will go quicker then I thought it would. I nodded at them and started to think, then I got it.

"You guys don't understand the pain you have put me through. I have had a hard time belonging places. I have been through alot of adoption families already and it's all your guys' fault. I know it is, and so do you. That's why you haven't tried getting ahold of me after awhile, isn't it? Here's another fact that you should know. I thought for the longest time, until tonight that is, that you both cared for me and that you loved me. I honestly thought that maybe you both were teens that just couldn't do this chld thing. I thought maybe if I proved that I loved you both you would except and I'd finally be where I'd belong. Guess I was wrong, huh? This is so stupid. You could of easily be sleeping and breathing right about now but now you won't be. I am going to kill you. I am going to make sure that you have pain. More pain that i had so you understand. Understand me, the both of you. You have killed me, now I am going to kill you. That's a fair enough game, so we are even." I smiled and cocked my gun. Mommy-O started bailing and Daddy-O gripped her hand. He looked at her and a tear fell from his eye. Yes, that's what I want to see. Pain and them knowing that this pain hurts. Hurtts more than a physically pain. They deserve all of this. This is what I wanted, right now. I aimed the gun at his chest.

"Goodbye Daddy-O. Any last words?" I said. He looked at her then at me. He let go of Mommy-O's hand and stared straight at me. He's ready. He should be. He defaintly deserves this. I closed my right eye and aim for his chest. I put my hand on the trigger and breathed in. I held my breath and pulled the trigger. A huge bang rang out. I watched as he fell back, lifeless and the thud of his dead body hit the floor. Mommy-O started to break down and she lost it. She stood up and started screaming, stupid Mommy-O.

"Stupid Mommy-O, now I have to kill you." I aimed the gun for her chest as I said this and pulled the trigger. I watched as her body fell lifeless and the thud of her body hitting the ground. I looked at Amanda and smiled. I felt better, I felt good. She smiled at me and nodded back.

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        Raven stood up and screamed "You are a nutcase!" I felt my heart break and I grabbed my chest. I could barely breath. I breathed in and realized that I couldn't breath anymore. I looked at Raven and started to cry. I'm  dead.