Broken Hearted Boy

Chapter 10

Chapter 10

        "Where were you guys last night?" I said as I sat down at the table for breakfast with the family.

"We had a busy night last night. The work place was busy." Mom said, she was smiling this morning and it is starting to worry me.

"Oh, okay. Is everything okay?" I looked at Dad, he seemed tired and looked like he was going to pass out any time soon.

"Everything is fine." Mom said.

"Don't lie to the boy." Dad said. His tone was harsh and it just seemed like he was a completely different person.

"Wow.. Dad, it's okay I was just aski-", he cut me off.

"No, you ask and you deserve the right answer. So hunny, tell him what is wrong because what happened was your fault."

"I got your father into some trouble so we have to take it step by step. That's all." My heart started pounded and I felt sick. Why was this going on? My life was just starting to turn out great. Oh, wait that's right life hates me. That's what it is. That's all it is. Life just specifically doesn't like me at all. For whatever reason, who knows why it just doesn't. I got up from the table and walked out of the door. I heard Mom yelling for me and I just kept walking. It's a horrible Saturday morning and I need Raven. Maybe, she'll explain to me what exactly I am to do now. I needed to find out where she lived because I never dropped her off at her house she always walked home from here. I got out my phone and called her. 

"Hello?" she said. 

"Hey babe, um... is there a way I can come over. Like right now?" I replied. There was a silence, like she was debating on if that was okay or not. My heart was started to pound even faster now. I swear if I lose her, I'm as good as dead. 

"Yeah, I live two blocks away. I'm the house with pink." 

"Okay. Thanks." 

"Yeah and babe?" 

"Yes?"

"I love you." she hung up. I groaned and smiled. This little war of ours has been going on. Whoever says I love you first before hanging out or whoever gets the last I love you in before the call ends thne that person gets a kiss. I started walking towards her house when I heard a car from behind. It was a normal sound when walking on this sidewalk so I kept walking. I made it to her house and realized that I have never really sat down and talked with her parents before. I breathed in heavily and knocked on the door. The door swung open and it was Raven. She had a huge smile on her face. I smiled at her and she hugged me tight. I held onto her and I felt put back together. Her hugs really put you back together. "I missed you." She said silently. 

"I missed you too. " I responded silently back. Maybe, this was how it was supposed to be. Maybe, we were meant to run away together. She took a step back and grabbed my hand. She lead me into her house and we walked towards a couch and sat down. She sat down across from and crossed her legs. It was so cute how she sat. She sat like a little anxious girl, but in a cute, hot way. 

"So, what's up?" she asked looking at me. 

"Um..." I looked down at the ground then at her. 

"Baby, what's wrong?"

"My parents...they are like in trouble. I stormed out of the house not telling them where I was going. That's why I called. I needed you." 

"Okay, it's alright. So like did they specifically say why they were in trouble?" 

"No, my Dad told me it was my Mom's fault. My Mom got my Dad in trouble or something. I don't know. Something is very wrong and I don't know what it is." 

"Okay well, maybe it is a good thing that they don't tell you. Sometimes, it's a good thing that you don't know what's going on with their lives." 

"But I have to know because if anything goes wrong then I leave!" i yelled this and I was breathing heavily. I looked at her and I saw she was scared, and confused. I sighed and looked at the ground. Yet, again I am messing things up. 

"What do you mean you leave?" She had tears in her eyes now and her voice was shakey. 

"Look," I sighed and looked at her, "Baby, there is some things you don't know about me and I kept those things from you for a reason." 

"Oh yeah and what reasons are they? Do you not trust me or something?" She was standing now, infront of me, with fury in her eyes mixed with tears. 

"No, no, no it has nothing to do with that. Please sit down so I can explain to you what I mean." 

"No. I don't want to know. Let's just pretend this never happened so that we can go back to things being normal. If you didn't want to tell me then I don't want to know right now. I want to know but I'll wait until you are ready." She was now smiling. I then realized why she was all moody. She was on her period. She left the room to go get a drink and sighed and groaned. Why of all times does now have to be the time where she has her monthly? I mean like come on. That must suck though, to have to go through all those emotional changes and not even realized that you doing it. I shook my head and looked out her window. I saw my Mom and Dad's car. Oh great, what a day. 

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        I stared intot the darkness of my room and sighed. This was the worst day of my new life so far. Mom and Dad explained to me that they thought they were in trouble but they aren't. Raven is all moody on account of her period. I have no one to talk to. My bro hasn't answered my Kik messages in months. Maybe, he moved on and found a brand new family with a brand new best friend. Things like that happen to people. They move on. Is that what my parents did after they had me? They just moved on, just like that? I can picture it now. My real mom telling my dad she wants a baby and him agreeing and then having me and realizing they don't want me anymore. It was like a relationship. They didn't want me anymore, they didn't love me anymore. They didn't even give me a chance. My past is what has me more messed up then anything right now. It haunts me every night. What I did there was no excuse for, but what they did they deserved what I did to them. They hurt me in a way that you can't fix. I had to give them my pain that they gave me. I wanted to so I did. That's how my past went. I hated my past and I hate myself even more because of it.