Changing- An Amourshipping Story

Chapter 8: Trapped in thoughts

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-Serena's POV-

He wouldn't know what it's like. He couldn't. But maybe..... No! He wouldn't and couldn't know what it's like! But then I find myself thinking over what he said. He wouldn't be alive if it wasn't for his Froakie... . Just who are you, Ash Ketchum?

Why do I care? Why should I care? Unless... but no... I couldn't be! Even if so, I refuse to accept it! I WILL NEVER BE IN LOVE WITH ASH KETCHUM! I can't be in love with him. He has Lillie for him. Lillie. Why does even a mention of her name hurt me so bad? Why do I get angry when I see her in the corridors? Why, when she looks at Ash, I find myself wanting to be in her shoes? Why? Just why?

I have Calem anyways. But somehow, even Calem can't cheer me up. My life is a mess. I drag myself out of the corridor and to my dorm, before flopping on the bed, trapped in my thoughts, not moving for the best of 2 hours before I fall asleep.

The time is 11:30 PM. I open my eyes and forget why I'm here. Oh wait.... that's right. I simply can't be in love with the jerk, I refuse to admit it. Calem is much better for me anyway. Besides, I can't just leave Calem. Then, I see Ash kissing Lillie in the back of my mind. He looks so happy with her, something I could never be to him. And I break. 

I find a tree to lay on in front of the school. I want to cry, but I have no tears left to cry. None. None at all. I have been crying so much since Bonnie died. Poor Bonnie, the beautiful girl whose eyes looked angelic, who looked like she could be swept up in the wind. Queen of the flowers, Queen of all the beauty in life. If Ash met Bonnie, he would probably fall for her instantly, she was so sweet. It pains me so bad. He would never love me. Never. Not after all I have done. And with that, I pass out from exhaustion, my back leaning against the tree. 

-Ash's POV(just after the events of chapter 7)-

Serena must be broken. I just hope she doesn't become as broken as I am. Too many loved ones dead to count. I tried suicide, and I hope she never has to go through that. I feel so bad. No matter what she has done to me, no one deserves to be in this state. No one. I would know more then anyone.

Hopefully she will recover. Hopefully she will learn that life is precious and don't put other people down. But somehow, I don't think she will completely. It takes a great deal to make someone change and realize there errors. It is much easier to make mistakes then to fix them. 

Then I think back to the honey blonde girl. Who is she now? What has her life become? I wish I could meet her now, but I'm afraid. Afraid that she might forget me or might not even care. Forgetting I can deal with, but remembering and not caring, I don't think I could take that hit.

I go to my dorm and lie on my bed. The last thing I think of before I fall asleep is the honey blonde girl. I wish I caught her name.

Just who are you. Just who are you, honey.

-End of Chapter 8-