The Ones For Him

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One month later...

"No!"

I was dropped into the pool and I pushed myself back up to the surface, glaring at Rami and Kian who were both laughing. They then jumped over my head and I turned around to chase them, but a pair of arms wrapped around my waist, holding me back.

"You can get them later, Xavier." Dom kissed my neck, but I kept my eyes on the twins, watching them make faces at me.

I huffed, "But I told them not to throw me in and they still did...and I'm fully clothed!"

Benji chuckled as he swam over to us and pulled my shirt off. "Come on, Xavier, it's a nice day today. You shouldn't be cooped up in your room all the time, you should be able to breathe fresh air."

Yes, this past month has just been me staying inside my room doing nothing, or cuddling with one of the guys. I was still sleeping by myself in the guest room, but it felt good because I felt like I did still have space, but it wasn't all that great because then I would feel lonely at the same time. I'd just be alone with my thoughts, which still did happen.

Therapy has helped a lot. I've been able to control the flashbacks a bit better by bringing up good memories. The nightmares would still happen, but those wouldn't really go away. I was ok with that, though. They're not too bad where I'm left feeling really scared or on the verge of having a panic attack.

Dr. Martin has even told me that it seemed like I've improved a bit more on my confidence. Before, I was more quieter and would sort of distance myself from everyone. Now, I actually start up conversations and hang out with my lovers more, usually in my room or in the living room. That also meant that I was talking a bit more with my friends from school, but I still haven't seen Cameron, Hunter, or Evan.

I did text them a handful of times, telling them that I was doing a lot better and they would tell me how happy they were for me, but they kept asking me when I would be able to visit them in their new apartment. They finally found a nice place in a really good part of the town. Cameron told me that they each had their own room and obviously each paid their own part of the rent.

I really did want to see them, but I was nervous to ask the guys because I know that they don't like them, which I can understand why.

They wouldn't want me hanging out with the guys that I cheated on them with.

I'm pretty sure that my friends knew too, but they were just sad since I haven't hung out with them in almost two full months. Evan did call me a few times asking when I would be able to come over, but I would just tell him that I was busy when I was really busy doing nothing at all and sulking in my room alone...or hanging out with the guys, of course.

Maybe I can ask them soon because I really miss Cameron, Hunter, and Evan. I also really want to see their apartment and see how good they're doing living by themselves.

"Hello..."

"Sorry, what did you say?" I looked at Levi and felt hands pull my sweats down, "What are you guys doing?"

Benji and Enzo pulled my sweats off, throwing them over my head to the floor. Hands immediately moved to the front of my briefs and I tensed up, feeling Dom kiss my neck.

"W-Wait-" I blushed and covered my face while Dom moved his hand away.

"What's wrong?" I heard Enzo ask beside me and I shook my head.

"I-I just feel awkward." I really did, "We haven't done anything in...a long time...so I don't know how to feel."

I peeked through my fingers at Benji and he smiled softly, pulling my hands back. " Forget about that, Xavier. You just have to feel good. Remember how you used to feel whenever we pleasured you, that's it and relax, ok? We'll take care of you."