The Ones For Him

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A few weeks later...

"Are you ready, mi amore?"

I looked up at Amir and sighed, nodding. "Yeah, I'm ready..."

Before we walked into the house, he grabbed my hand and kissed my knuckles, then leaned down to peck my lips. I smiled and grabbed his hand, punching the code in and stepping in the house.

The past six weeks were really good. I was getting closer to Amir the more I spent time with him. I didn't always stay at his place, but I did really enjoy the time that I spent with him. He helped me out a lot, and now, I was feeling quite good and maybe almost back to my normal self.

Therapy sessions were still good, but a week ago, was when I started visiting Dr. Martin once every other week, instead of the usual two to three times a week. The weeks in between, we would have a brief video call once a week, and just talk about how I was feeling and how things were going. I didn't get nightmares of my raping anymore, but I still would get some from the two accidents. The flashbacks, anxiety, and panic attacks would still happen, but I was dealing with it.

I also visited Enzo a few times and told him how the rest of the guys felt about me wanting a break. He was upset that they would act like that, and told me that it was good that I was taking a break. He told me that I could take as much time as I needed to feel better, and I was really happy that he was trying to understand. I haven't talked to him since a week ago, but I didn't tell him when I was coming home.

My family and I went out a few times, like an actual family, and spent a lot of time together too, with and without Briar, of course. I was happy with how things were slowly changing for the better and I was genuinely happy.

I didn't talk with any of my lovers during the break. I did a few times with Rami or Milo, but they usually told me the same. Then Milo told me that Manuel, Gio, Marco, and Eddie had came to the house and talked with all of them. Milo didn't tell me much about what they said or how the guys reacted, though.

I led Amir into the kitchen and saw that the tv was on from here. The kitchen was a bit messy, and I looked out the back door. I felt my heart squeeze when I saw my dear lovers sitting outside in the backyard, seeming to be eating breakfast.

I smiled and opened the door which made them look my way. They gasped quietly and Milo got up, running over and crashing into my chest as he wrapped his arms tightly around me.

"Fuck, I missed you so much..." He pulled back and kissed me, making me smile and kiss back.

We pulled away and I hugged him again. "I missed you too, Milo, I missed all of you."

The others were walking towards us and I gave them a big smile as they pulled me into a hug. I was told how much they love and missed me, then they all pulled away.

Benji grabbed onto my hands, "Xavier, we're really sorry for not paying attention to your feelings."

I furrowed my brows and looked at the others. "I don't understand?"

"Manuel, Gio, Marco, and Eddie came over about two weeks ago, and told us how you were feeling." I turned to Levi and he frowned. "We didn't think about how you were feeling, Xavier. We were too busy worrying that you would leave again, and Gio told us that you were upset that we weren't trying to understand you. He told us how selfish we were acting, for not thinking about how you were really feeling, and I'm sorry for that..."

"We're all sorry too, Xavier. I'm not sure how to explain how stupid I feel, but I'm really sorry for how I acted at your parents' house, and I hope you can forgive me." Kian spoke next and looked like he was about to cry.