Winning Hurricane

I - Triptans

Survival of the fittest.

Kapag sumuko ka, talo ka.

Apat na taon lang naman kung tutuusin.. tatlong taon nalang at kung papalarin magiging Doctor na din kami kung maipapasa ang PLE. Kaso hindi ganon kadali.

Everyday we are physically, mentally and emotionally drained. We have more than fifty pages to read and study overnight. The only comfort we get? It is the fact na hindi lang kami nag-iisa na nahihirapan.

The good side in med? Lahat lumalaban.. pero nagtu tulungan. Not in a way na we cheat-kasi when we cheat buhay ang nakasalalay sa future.. tulungan in a way we share our transeses, samplexes and everything we could share para mapadali ang pag-aaral.

"Rate me!" Ansel muttered, we're currently eating sa isang coffeeshop malapit sa University where we usually study. I glanced at her before I continued munching my red velvet.

"On?"

"Gaano ako ka bobo?"

She looked so devastated like any minute now iiyak na siya. She failed the quiz again in Pharma, it was the third time.

And I don't know what to say or if I should say anything. We've been bestfriends since-heaven-knows-when but I still don't have any idea how to give her comfort.. I am not good with words. Everyone knows it, I totally suck in giving advices kaya hindi ko na sinubukan siyang i-comfort because I know it won't help.

Baka lalo lang siyang ma-down.

"Everyone fails Pharma quizzes,"

Though, I never failed once.

"Chandy, third time. High fatality rate ang Pharma, ayoko maging irreg."

"Stop over thinking."

"Paano kapag bumagsak ako?"

I heaved a sigh. You can do this, Chandy. Just think of some good words you know.. good freaking words.. "Hindi naman to ang first time mo bumagsak.. surely makakabangon ka ulit." I said, trying my best to ease what she feels.

Kasi hindi naman to talaga ang first time niya at hindi lang siya ang bumabagsak.. pero nakakabawi naman sila.

Pero nang mapatingin ako sa mukha niya halos pag-sisihan kong binuka ko pa ang bibig ko. The heck. Bakit ba kasi ang tagal ni Cyclone? Kung kelan kelangang kelangan ang words of wisdom niya saka siya nawawala!

Parang mas nasaktan siya sa sinabe ko.. paano ba kasi mag-bigay ng comfort? Hindi naman ako sanay na may nagco comfort sakin.. I mean, no one did it for me. Kaya ayoko talagang may taong iiyak o nalulungkot sa harap ko. I'm good academically but not in comfort department. Doon ko mas feel ma-bobo.

Drat it.

"You're good in Surg."

She frowned even more, "Everyone's good in Surg."

"You're better in suture."

Guard. Kailan mag li lift yong spirit niya? I am running out of good words to say. Mas gusto ko nalang mag-present ng cases kaysa mag-encourage. I'm really bad at this.

She heaved a sigh, "Ugh. Forget it. Chill sem ngayon, kaya ko'to."

I smiled inwardly. She used to do that everytime she's with me. Comforting herself, I mean kasi I cannot give one.

"What's taking Cy so long?" she asked while doing an advance reading for Para.

I shrugged, "The usual."

"Palibhasa matalino, una landi talaga."

"He's good in multi-tasking," I answered. Which is true, he can do.. four things at a time..