Winning Hurricane

XXI - Periorbital puffiness

This is the thing I'm dreading for.

It was supposed to be a good day since first day together dapat namin ngayon ni Hurricane but I already have no time for him. What happened with Ansel was unexpected, we talked about it last night and I decided to just support her in her decision, making sure na whatever happens she's not alone. She'll never be. It was so hard especially for her but sometimes people were left with only one choice.

It was.. beyond painful. It felt like something inside me was taken. Siguro, iba talaga yong sakit kapag kaibigan yong nasasaktan? I wanted to share her pain. 

I wasn't able to answer Hurricane's message last night because I was so busy comforting my best friend, and truth be told, Hurricane will always be second to Ansel. 

But I am trying to give him what he deserve, kaya umiisip nadin ako ng paraan para makabawi. Tapos ngayon na we were supposed to spend a day together hindi pa matutuloy.

Kakagaling lamang namin ng groupmates ko sa assigned barangay, dumiretso naman kami sa pag-present ng cases and another round of quizzes. My last stop should be the hospital pero kailangan ulit bumalik sa school to meet one of our faci.

Tonight, I'm not meeting my boyfriend -- wow. In a relationship na talaga ako pero hindi ko pa ramdam sa sobrang busy. Plus, he's too busy too. I'm with my classmates, discussing the case given to us and reviewing each other nadin. Every hour, I am checking Ansel din by messaging her.

Puro practical, quizzes, cases, recits, SGD, hospital and barangay. Dito talaga iikot ang mundo ko for this sem.

This month was supposed to be exciting kahit na nakakapagod but with everything that's going on parang gusto ko nalang maging bula muna.

I think I'm not meeting Hurricane for one whole week. Kumusta naman ang girlfriend duty ko? Hindi ko ata talaga mapapanindigan to.

Busy. Won't be able to see u for one week maybe.

I read my message that I sent him kanina pa. He's not replying, I think busy din siya mag-aral. He asked kasi if mag-kikita kami tonight. First day palang na dapat enjoy muna pero nagkaka second thoughts na agad ako!

But no, if we really want this, we ought to work this out.

But how? Nakakainis. Eto ba ang advantage kapag med student and law student in a relationship? Parehas busy kaya hindi mag-hahanapan ng time? Why does it sound like a big disadvantage?

I slid my phone back in my bag before looking at William. Our book in OB. May recit na naman bukas. OB's fun also our faci but very strict kapag recitation na. Kailangan detail lagi ang answer so it is very important to have notes and discuss it in group para prepare talaga kami.

My phone pinged kaya kinuha ko ulit mula sa bag. Hindi ko napigilan mapangiti nang sa wakas nag-reply nadin siya! Guard, I am turning too soft because of this guy!

Atty. :Nag-dinner kana? San ka?

I started typing a reply bago ulit nag-focus sa inaaral ko. Hindi naman na nag-reply si Hurricane which surpisingly disappoints me. Nakakainis! Laging mag-tatanong tapos di magre-reply? Is this how it really works?

Geez!

Half an hour passed balik kami sa tanungan session. Hindi ako masyado nakiki-involve since hindi talaga ako super effective sa ganitong study habit. Sumama lamang talaga ako to help and share some of my knowledge, in return may nare retain naman sakin sa mga sinasabe din nila.

"Hey, is that Hurricane?" Janella asked habang nakatingin sa labas. Napasunod ang mata ko sa tinitignan niya. True enough, kahit likod palang kilala ko na. Chineck ko agad ang phone ko, nag-message na pala siya.