Nowhere Kids

Weird feeling

We arrived at the creek as a group, and I was starting to relax. I still had a weird feeling, but I had to trust the test.
"You okay?" Brent asked as I stared into the water. I hadn't noticed the others wading in and laughing as they splashed each other.
"Yeah, I'm fine" I said, giving him a smile. He took my hand and I followed him into the water, catching up with the others.

Our jeans and shoes were soaked as we walked through the water, but we didn't care. We were just kids enjoying our time together before our jobs took away our freedom. That thought stayed with me for a while, we were just kids. Maybe I was rushing growing up, maybe I needed to learn to relax and enjoy my youth with these guys.

We splashed around the creek for a while, laughing and messing with each other. Once it started getting late we got out of the water and stood in the sun, hoping to dry off. The boys were laughing as they messed with each other, telling jokes and shoving each other around. I leaned against a tree and watched them with a smile.
"Come on Jamie" Zach said as he jumped on Barry's back, tackling him to the ground.
"Yeah, you feeling okay? You're not usually hanging off to the side this much" Eric added as Brent laughed at the other two.
"I'm fine, just thinking" I said. Brent stopped laughing and looked over at me. I knew he'd be worried all evening if I didn't tell him what was on my mind, so I sighed and pulled him aside, away from the others.

"What's wrong babe? I thought everything was okay now" he said as he placed his hands on my hips.
"I don't know Brent, I want to relax, but I have a bad feeling" I mumbled. He tilted his head and frowned, worrying me.
"About what J?" He asked softly.
"What if that test was wrong? I know it's stupid, but I just don't feel right" I said sadly. I looked down at the ground but he took his hand and lifted my chin gently so I could look him in his eyes.
"It's not stupid J. Sometimes those tests are wrong, we did get the cheap ones. Could be too soon to tell too. Maybe you should see a doctor" he suggested.
"I'm scared B" I mumbled, trying not to cry. He pulled me into his arms and rubbed my back.
"We'll be okay J" he said softly.

We rejoined the others and they all seemed worried.
"You two okay?" Eric asked.
"J isn't feeling good again so I'm going to take her home" Brent said. They all gave each other a confused look before looking back at us.
"Feel better" Zach said.
"I'll see you in a bit I guess" Barry added. Brent took my hand and we walked back to his house together.

"So, do you actually want to see a doctor about it?" Brent asked as we walked.
"Maybe tomorrow" I said softly. He hummed in agreement before looking over at me.
"You know, I wouldn't mind being a dad. Might teach me some important things" he said.
"We're too young B" I mumbled.
"Maybe, but if you are pregnant, we'd be out of school by the time you give birth, and it's not like we planned it this way on purpose. Things happen for a reason" he said. His confidence as he spoke made me feel a little better and less alone.
"I love you B"
"I love you too J"

We got to Brent's house and got into his truck so he could drive me home. I felt bad as we were both slightly wet from the creek, but he didn't seemed worried. I'm sure I put a lot on his mind.
"You going to be okay?" I asked. He didn't even glance at me, just kept his eyes on the road.
"Of course, I'm more worried about you" he said.
"I just know that having you by my side makes a big difference" I said, making him blush and smile.

We got to Barry's house and sat in the driveway for a while.
"I think I want to schedule the appointment on the weekend, so I don't have to worry about missing any more school" I told him.
"But we both work this Saturday" he said while looking over at me.
"Are you working Sunday?"
"I don't know yet"
"If you have free time, maybe we can do it then"
"Sounds good to me"
"You are coming with me, right?"
"Of course"
Brent kissed me goodbye before I could get out of the truck. As much as I didn't want to leave him, I was happy to be home. Or at least, Barry's house. I felt bad staying with his family so I didn't consider it my home, but Beau was there and it was my place to sleep, so it's the closest thing to home I have right now.

I went inside and was immediately greeted by Beau.
"Hey buddy, I've had a long day" I said. I fed him his dinner before taking him into the backyard with me. I wish I had a leash for him, I'm sure he missed his walks. For now he could just enjoy the backyard, where he galloped and rolled around in the grass.

Barry came home about an hour after I did. He found Beau and I cuddled up on the couch.
"How are you feeling?" He asked as he placed his keys down.
"Alright" I mumbled, holding Beau close to me.
"You and Brent aren't hiding anything, are you?" He asked as he sat across from us.
"No, of course not" I said defensively.
"Alright, just checking" he mumbled. I'm glad he never pushed us

Barry and I hung out in the living room until it got dark. I was feeling tired so I said goodnight to him before Beau and I went to our room. I laid in bed and held Beau close as he slept. There was too much on my mind to sleep. I just hope my weird feeling doesn't mean anything. If I'm pregnant, my whole life is ruined. I don't understand how Brent can be so calm, we really are too young. I stared at the clock half the night before finally passing out around 3am.