Divine Justice [Editing]

12. Aftermath (EDITED)

Juliette

I can't believe what I just said, and the consequence of it has slapped me in the face.

If it weren't for the fact that the atmosphere is so tense in this office, especially because of what I just said, I would've shrugged it off and moved on.

However, the reality that I live in results in me staring blankly, not looking particularly anyway, while my Mate - as odd as it sounds - looks on my still form worriedly.

"You're not alright." He states, but I don't respond.

I can feel tears streaming down my cheeks, their cold trail as they drop to the floor as a show of silent agony.

After what I've just said, I may never see her again.

"What the fuck have I done?"I whispered before falling down.

For the first time in more than two years, I cried.

I cried for literally everything that I've done in the past two years.

I cried because in the process of becoming a semi deranged mercenary with a consuming vengeance, I lost my two best friends.

I cried because I just lost the one friend that understood me, even if she lied to me.

I cried because I can't even find it in me to take that dagger and avenge my dad and brother's deaths.

I cried because I'm not even sure I can give Sebastian what he wants - a loving, caring Mate who would always be there for him in good times and the bad.

I'm not even sure if I have it in me to love anymore.

I cried because for the first time in two years, I had someone I could talk to and who knows who I really am, making it easier to be a piece of my old self again, but that's gone now.

And most importantly, I cried because I have to seek refuge in the arms that might have claimed my father's life mercilessly, and... I can't even find it in me to despise him.

I can't believe that it took one night for the only friendship that I had left to just dissolve into thin air, leaving tension and guilt in its wake.

I felt arms around me and it didn't take scientist to figure out who it was. Who I had a feeling would always be there when I'm like this.

At my lowest.

"Oh, Reina." Was all he said for me to start sobbing.

Rock, meet Bottom. Bottom, meet Rock.

"I m-messed up." I said between sobs.

"Everything's going to be okay, dearest. I know you didn't mean it, and she knows it too." He murmurs, his voice very comforting.

I don't have enough strength to turn him away - not even thinking of how he ruined my life can solve the pain I'm currently feeling in my heart.

"I didn't mean it." I said before turning around to hug him.

He didn't hesitate to wrap his arms around me to hug me back, despite the initial surprise he's feeling. I don't think he expected this from me - frankly, so did I. Then, he drags us to sit on the couch before  cradling me.

"It's okay. I know." He says to me, and I nestle himself in his warm embrace.

His arms feel like home... with his wonderful scent, the way his heart is beating fast, the way he and I fit into each other like two puzzle pieces... he feels like home.