❝ Maybe our love was meant for another lifetime. ❞
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Living life to the fullest was Moon Ayla's life motto. Because maybe if she lived every moment to its fullest, there's a chance she'll scare even death away.
Each moment could possibly be he...
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My head is filled with thoughts on what would've happened if we had never met.
Do you think, maybe, we would've been better off?
We'd probably be sleeping peacefully, instead of constantly thinking about the other and laying awake in bed with our minds filled with hopeless thoughts and memories.
I wouldn't be thinking about your smile and desperately wishing I could see it one last time or hearing your laugh just one more time. I wouldn't be reminiscing about the times we were together, those silent gazes and innocent touches. And I would certainly not be missing you as much as I do right now.
I'd be at peace because I wouldn't be burdened with thoughts of you holding someone else in your arms, someone who isn't me.
Because it hurts.
It hurts when I stand there and pretend like I don't care at all when I witness something that shatters my heart. It hurts when I know that I need to let go of you but I can't. I can't because I'm still waiting for the impossible to happen.
My mom once told me something I can still vividly remember to this day, and that is 'hope can be such a beautiful thing, even if it breaks your heart'. It's that even our happiest moments can be filled with longing for something we may never have.
I had you, but I couldn't keep you.
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It hurt.
Ayla's condition had drastically worsened to the point she could no longer attend university, but honestly, she always questioned herself on why she bothered to continue going when there were a million other things she could do with her limited time here on earth.
However, she knew deep within her that it was Jungkook who had kept her going, whether it was in life or to the place where she had first met the man. No amount of miserable school work and projects could deter her from seeing her best friend everyday and going through with the same routine they have had for two years.
And when Jungkook left, Jimin was there for her. Jimin was never a replacement for him because they held two different, yet equally significant place in her heart. So she continued to go.
But now that Jimin had left, or rather, she had pushed Jimin away, Ayla found no point in going back.
When she had turned her back on him, it took every inch of her body to stop herself from whirling on her heels to face him again. To say that no, none of those things that she had just said were things she wanted to happen. To ask him if he felt the same way she had felt about him. To tell him that she wanted him to continue walking with her, to her. To finally confess to him and reveal that she loved him.
