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Stressed 🌺 Anxceitmus

TW: Cursing, Panic Attack, Stress, School, Exhaustion, Worry, Very Brief Mentions Of Being Passively Suicidal

(It ends kinda fluffy so ://)

You get this because I wanted to write an author's note to rant 'cause I can't rant on my insta because my parents stalk it :/

Enjoy I guess- it's half-baked but whatever

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Virgil was tired. Well yeah, of course he was, he always was tired- he was a college student. But he was more tired than usual. You see, it was finals week at Virgil's school, and honestly, Virgil wanted to die at this point. He had a few passively suicidal outbursts here and there with his friends and boyfriends that were mainly met with quiet laughter or slightly worried looks- Virgil realized it was probably context that led to either reaction.

Virgil still had to study though; he didn't want to fail and disappoint his parents that worked so hard for the finances to even get him into college in the fist place. Which leads us to now.

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You took this class- studied this one topic- for three semesters. You cannot fucking fail this test, Virgil scolded himself, his head in his hands as he tried to read the notes in front of him. The words were melding together and his vision was blurry. He couldn't figure out whether it was the exhaustion, the tears, or a mix of both.

"Hey V, you doing good in there? Jan's getting worried," Remus called through the door, startling Virgil enough to make him knock his coffee off of his desk. Shit, shit, shit.

"Y-Yeah, I'm fine!" Virgil called back, getting up for a moment to dash to where he stored napkins in his room and quickly started to clean up the spilled coffee, tears flowing rapidly down his face as his thoughts began to spiral. Remus wasn't convinced.

"For fucks sake- I'm coming in." And so Remus barged right on in, freezing at the sight of a sobbing Virgil frantically trying to scrub coffee out of his carpet. "Oh shit- Virge, I need you to stop okay? Just- Jesus Christ you're gone, okay- uh-" Remus didn't quite know what to do. He wasn't good with this stuff. Lucky for him, Janus came walking in to investigate the sudden commotion.

"Whoa, whoa, whoa, okay. Remus, did you find him like this?" Janus asked, walking quickly over and kneeling down to Virgil. Remus nodded, sitting down next to Janus. Janus sighed and put his hands on Virgil's shoulders, making him flinch harshly and freeze. "Virgil can you hear me?"

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Stupid! Stupid, stupid, stupid! Look at the mess! They're gonna hate you! You're such a-

"Virgil can you hear me?"

Who the fuck-

"Virgil I'm gonna have to move your arms okay? I don't want you to slip and hurt yourself."

What? Wait nononono, Virgil flinched as soon as Janus' hands touched his arms, causing him to jump and try to back away- hitting his head and backing against the wall in the process. Actually it was his desk but he couldn't really tell the difference.

"Okay, that's okay. Can you look at me?" Janus asked. Virgil slowly raised his vision from Janus' chest to his eyes. Janus suppressed the urge to frown at the look of distrust on Virgil's face. Remus just scooted slightly forward and offered a hand to Virgil.

"V, can you hold Remus' hand?" Virgil's eyes shifted from Janus to Remus' hand, then back to Janus. Slowly, he moved his own hand forward and held onto Remus'.

"Good job Virgil. Now, I need you to breathe with me. Remus, can you tap the rhythm for me?"

*~* Fuck I'm sorry I'm lacking on motivation here- I wrote this for the cuddles *~*

Virgil had his head against Remus' chest as Janus fussed around the room. Picking up clothes on the floor and putting them in a basket, cleaning up trash, straightening the pile of notes on Virgil's desk. Janus was a little distressed at the disarray of his boyfriend's room.

"Jan just come join us, the room isn't that bad," Remus joked, putting a hand under Virgil's shirt and drawing little circles on his back. Janus looked up and down for a moment before signing and walking over to ten bed, taking his jacket and gloves off on the way before flopping next to Remus and Virgil.

"Is he asleep?" Janus asked, adjusting to curl against Remus. Remus nodded before wrapping an arm around Jan and pressing a kiss to his forehead. Janus let out a small him before the room went quiet.

"I'm worried about him." Remus said, staring at the ceiling. Janus nodded and brought a hand to Virgil's cheek, lightly rubbing the year marks. Virgil sighed and leaned into the touch before letting out a high-pitched whine.

"The exams are really getting to him, huh?" Janus hummed, kissing Virgil's forehead. He had bags under his eyes- well he always did, but this time they were bigger and darker than normal. Remus tightened his grip around Janus and moved his hand up Virgil's back to massage his spine.

"Let's just let him sleep for now. He earned it," Remus kissed both Virgil and Janus' foreheads and looked back at the ceiling before closing his eyes. Janus slowly nodded and closed his eyes as well. Still he was worried. But they could talk about it later. For now, cuddles.

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Shitty ending shitty oneshot shitty author

I'm not doing good mentally but hey, it's been fucking years since I've ever been even close to stable.

TW for the next part of the note I guess and maybe TMI but idk

Wop wop my parents used the words 'take care of yourself' against me and they hate me so now I want to commit unalive and I'm not clean anymore oopsies- don't tell mom-

(draqqy if you're reading this i kinda want to talk about it but i'm too nervous to bring it up so please message me)

(Requests Open)